LuRvE....

2006-02-17T04:56:00.000-08:00

``__da more i talk da more DISHONEST i will look like
``so da best way is to juz SHUT UP!!
``keep my own opinion to myself
``take all da blame! =DD
``--yuppsss go ahead..blame me..hate me..drain me

``gooooossssshhh how can u fucking do dat?!?
``TOOT TOOt TOOT TOOT!
``ssoo fuck up!!

2006-02-05T05:22:00.000-08:00

``let me UPDATE my rotting bloggy -hahas

``today.today.today.
``went to STUDY at starbucks at northpoint wif sayang
``--yuppssyuppss people we STUDY haha =DD
``bought venti mocha x)) ,oreo cheesecake and new york new york cheesecake
``--yummmss damnit im soo FULL!
``da new york chessecake was sooo CHESSEY! didnt get to finish it
``such a waste HUH? --oohh wellss
``did my english and maths homework der
``while sayang revise for his physics TEST
``didnt get to finish my maths though
``only did abt 12 QS =((
``didnt know how to do radical fraction and negative
``luckily my sis SAVES da day --whhhesss =DD
``now i know..gtg gonna finish it

~~``damnit!!I miss my laaauu gggoonngg!~~
~~``everytime bad timing sia!! so long nv hang out liao! or chat in msn! haiz!~~
~~``sossoobbss ='((llaaauu gong!!where are u de!?~~
~~``i know i know!! wif GAVIN!~~

2006-02-03T05:15:00.000-08:00

``im guilty of letting my bloggy rot =xx
``--yuppss oh wellss..
``nth interesting is happening to me at da moment so nth to write..
``OH OH except dat wei sien got me a lil something from her short holiday =DD
``sooo happy lerr
``she got me a necklace..sooo nice!

it may Be a littler dark but it say der ''DENDEN'' x)) got my name somemore.. ~whheesss

2006-01-20T05:11:00.000-08:00

``blog blog blog
``finally can blog sia
``after 1000 years! =DD

``belated happy b-day to our dearest BRENDA!
``yuppssyuppss --whooo 15 liao
``must be MORE matured hor? =DD

``anyways today fri so school end at 12.30
``after school went to brendy's house
``then az's house-- use com for awhile
``after that went back to school to help to decorate da foyer
``for the CHINESE NEW YEAR!
``sooo tired --did da chinese paper cutting
``hope everyone likes it xDD

``at abt 5.30 went to MAC to haf dinner wif sayang
``he juz finished his ncc --sooo sweet wait for me =DD
``after mac went to coffee bean to eat cake *yummmyyss* haha
``8 went home and use com --yuppss dats abt it.

``i only get to go to my CCA every WED for an hour or so!
``sux!
``i cant go on tues since i haf german class -- soooo sad sia
``wed from 3.30 to 4.30 got pure lit
``stress sia.. --i dun like sec 3 life!
``everyday after school got something on
``my only free weekday is FRIDAY
``haiz.haiz.haiz.
``plus i think im going to fail my geo and social studies
``im so scared of failing my maths again dat i did it everyday
``kinda negletting my other subs..
``aiyoyoyo ..guess better time my plan properly..

``well..guess i'll end it here

``i hope our path will be sooo much smoother from now on
``lets work together toward happiness alritey?? =)) plz..

2006-01-07T05:27:00.000-08:00

``Until the day i die--Story of the year
``--yuuppss dats gonna be my bloggy song --i tink -_-
``but 1st i need da song itself *urgh*
``i asked sooo many people sia
``all dun haf >=((
``only sayang haf arr!
``too bad his in TOWN --bad timing tsk.tsk.tsk.
``ooohh wellss
``not really sure if i want to put that song
``kinda tired of it
``been listening to it for 2mths or so liao --EVERYDAY!
``i was thinking Stick with u--Pussycatdolls
``dat song i also nice =DD yupppsss!
``which one!? --urgh! both NICE!

``changed skin! nice?
``oh and the password is gone too ~whhhesss =DD
``tatas.. gotta EAT

2005-12-30T05:23:00.000-08:00

``Before

``After

``yuppss =]]
``today i messed up my own room
``then i clean it all up again
``hahahahahaha =DD
``and i spent da whole day doing it
``tired sia..

``who could haf tot i haf sooo many jeans?
``7 in total
``so 1 day 1 jean lorr
``haha x))
``can open my own shop liao

2005-12-22T20:14:00.000-08:00

``school.school.school >.< ``now in school using the com in com lab 1 ~haha ``if only school life is like this wen it re-opens ``go com lab's use the com doing totally *NADA ``it'll be the perfect secondary school life for everyone =DD ``yea?yea?agreed??

``this morning woke up early to go to school for the ushering thingy
``woke up at abt 6 am like dat ~urgh
``sooo damn.damn sleepy lorr
``coz i slept at abt 2+ in da morning
``my eye bags sooooo BIG liao ='[[
``anyways during da council thingy all we did was to stand derr for 2 hr or so
``and welcome da pri6+their parents
``of course wen u welcome them u must be all smiley.smiley,smiley=DD
``sia lar..my cheeks PAIN! ~sobs
``+ i sound like a broken radio i keep saying
``HI!MORNING!THIS WAY PLZ!! ~urgh!

``council should be paid to do this kind of things seriously sia
``so after da council thingy went to use da com at com lab1 lorr
``VJ is suppose to help me put songs inside my i-tune in my hp
``but he went out and will only be back an hour later
``wif our lunch!
``~yohooo! we get FREE lunch muhahaha!
``now chatting wif lau gong..
``shse's damn.damn.damn cute lorr
``coz she's damn.damn.damn angry wif FOO haha >.< ``oh ya..reeza ended up putting da songs inside my hp ``thanks chiobu! u rock.urock.urock! BUT ``i rock more! haha ~ya rite im talking craps liao ``k lar..sooo sian updating bloggy

``NADA=nothing a jap word

2005-12-19T22:53:00.000-08:00

``bored.bored.bored.bored.bored
``been using the com for an hour or two
``and there's nth here -_-''
``der's no MSN since my com kena virus again ='[[
``thanks to ...ahem...ahem ME!! x)) haha
``oh wells tsk.tsk

``nth much actually
``so i haf nth much to write
``juz changed the skin of my bloggy
``notice it? =DD
``Jannah dearest help me do it!=]]
``she also put da song in ~whhhheeesss!
``thanks gurl! u rock.u rock.u rock! x))
``oh ya..she's been complaining dat we've [[sien and den]] been negletting our bloggy
``so i guess i better update it now
``i good hor!? =DD haha

2005-12-18T02:57:00.000-08:00

``wooottsss! im back!! x))
``so long nv blog liao coz my OLDOLD com broke down *haha*
``its finally fix so i can finally blog *yeahey!*

``6\Dec
``happy b-day to sien sien!
``had a blast during da 1day 1night chalet of urs
``water+flour+egg
``sooo hard to wash sia x((
``special thanks to hazwan adik for cracking an EGG on my HARD head!

``[[091012]]
``2nd ani
``fought on dat day
``luckily everything turn out alrite in da end
``thanks deary!
``lots of lurve from me to uUu =DD

``n today soooo bored.
``year end thankgiving ani of CHURCH OF CHRIST *whhheess*
``this years colour pink and black *haha*
``oh ya..fought wif sayang again *aiyoyoyo*
``yesterday juz bet wif him we cant even go through a week wifout fighting
``guess i won!! *muhahaha* =II

``well end here...no mood to blog

y must we fight EVERYTIME y y y!?

2005-12-05T05:40:00.000-08:00

``i dunno wether i should be glad or sad bcoz im staying over-nite for siensien's chalet??
``With my SIS!

``seriously its like sooo -_-''
``must i really bring her along??
``all she ever wants is a chance to malu me
``*WTH* everytime sia..
``at home she's ok ar
``but wen she's wif me and im wif my frends
``she say stupid things abt me in fornt of them
``dats y i dun wan to go out wif her
``its sooo very da malu!! *urgh!*
``haiz haiz haiz
``suddenly i dun wanna stay over-nite
``coz its like shes going to be derr!!
``but i cant DUN bring her
``my dad wun allow me to stay
``and lau gong had sooo badly wan me to pei her
``haiz haiz haiz.
``stupid sia

2005-12-02T06:14:00.000-08:00

``Lesson learnt:Never go groccery shopping when both the sisters are der x))
``coz u may not be able to buy the stuffs that u need
``but instead buy the ones dat u dun
``and leave a BIG whole on ur pocket =DD

``recently went groccery shopping wif my whole family
``half of wat we ended up buying were chocolates
``more chocolates and CHOCOLATES *muhahaha*
``no wonder im getting a lil abit BIG huh? ~oh wells.. x))
``me and my sister was like going around seng siong looking for choco's
``and other snacks dat we can FEED on
``we stuff everything inside the basket my dad was holding
``he was like PUT ~sigh PUT ~sigh PUT ~sigh *harhar*
``that day we also went shoe-s shopping x))
``soooooo tiring sia -_-"
``in the end i only bought 1 shoe
``my mum bought 1 too but i guess it could be counted as mine
``since it fits me =]] *whheesss*
``my sis bought one pair of sandal and a sport shoe
```which is yellow in colour btw the colour iss sooo funny in her
``coz its like soo gurly..and my sis is the HALF-gurl HALF *haha*
``well im like soo bored NOW
``sayang NOT online =,[[
``BTW from sunday onwards i'll haf a new hair cut *muhaha* x))
``if i do this..i'll get 2 pressie from sayang on our 3rd mth anni!! *whheeess*

2005-11-29T06:33:00.000-08:00

``today.today.today.today.
``hmmmmm *thinking*
``Had CCA in the morning *modern Dance*
``i was like sooo screwed! came half an hour late =xx *haha*
``oohh wellss..no suprised derr ya??
``luckily they hafnt started *yoohoo*
``so i didnt get any scolding.
``oh ya.NAT E baby didnt come today!
``sad.sad.sad.sad. *sobsob*
``Syafiq changed the story. *WTH*
``me and Fangs both felt dat the last time one IS better.
``*haiz* wat to do..nvm ar =[[
``but it was fun creating the dance!!
``it was like we're on a club or something.
``coz the steps are like shake to ur left.shake to ur right.
``and everyone was soooo HIGH! x))
``FUN.FUN.FUN.
``they've added 2 more session.
``one this friday which i will attend
``the other is this coming tues *6 DEC*
``which is BTW wei sien's chalet!! *urgh*
``sooo i wun come.muhahahaha =pp
``we've also wacthed the 2004 anti'drug compitation video
``last year i was held at SUNTEC CITY
``i wish next year will be there too *yea keep wishing den*
``saw alot of our faces on da video *wahahhaha*
``soooo cool!! =]]
``but we've watched it in silence.we didnt know how to make da audio work!! *urgh*
``ooohh wellss..better luck next time yea??
``anyway Fangs is burning copies of it!! >.< CANT WAIT to get a hold on one of them! *haha*
``i BOUGHT a BLACK nail polish BTW!
``i painted my toe nails! *muhaha*
``i wan to paint my fingers!!
``yuppy!! gonna paint them ASAP! x)

2005-11-27T22:36:00.000-08:00

``bored.bored.bored.bored.bored!
``can this day get anymore boring!? HUH?
``i can use da com whole day but NO ONE is online! *sobsob*
``where's my lau gong!? where's my adik!? mostly where's my sayang!?
``*urgh* changed to another skin
``but da error is still derr!! *WTF!?*
``im so sick of changing it EVERYTIME
``sometimes i just wish my bloggy can stay error free for juz one day!
``gosh.gosh.gosh.gosh.sickening
``changed wei sien and i bloggy and der is no error!
``*wooottsss!?* no error.no error.no error.
``hope lau gong like da skin though =]]
``kinda cute.bearbear x))
``got photo thingy too
``but no songs arr..sorry de =[[

``lau gong if u dun like then tell me bahx..
``i look for something else dat u WILL like =DD

2005-11-25T06:17:00.000-08:00

``cycling wif my DAD was a living hell experince =xx
``we cycled for abt 2 hours or so
``covered abt 22km *fainths*
``and he can still say ONLY!
``*wooootts!?* i was like already panting
``wen we were juz half way derr
``who wun sia???
``the route dat we took was full of turns
``UPs and DOWNs
``mostly ups *urgh*
``btw we cycled on the road itself
``damn.damn.damn scary
``1/4 on da way i lost control of the freakin bike
``and i banged HARD on da bushes
``the bushes of flowers wif throns!
``i took home abt 9 cuts
``8 cuts on my legs
``1 small one on my 4th finger
``luckily the cuts aren't really deep
``but 3 of dem are looonnnnngg =[[
``*hope they heal soon*
``finally lau gong online liao!!! *yiippeee*
``i go chat wif her larr =]]

2005-11-21T07:48:00.000-08:00

``gonna blog abt this past 3 days
``if u count today i guess its 4 -_-''

``Friday
``it was a very fun day for me
``spent another crazy day wif my adik and sayang =]]
``we went jogging towards sembawang park
``everyone met up at 6am at the bus-stop across SUNPLAZA
``went to MAC to eat breakfast 1st
``then the jogging starts
``*cool* WHO COULD HAF TOT ADIK CAN JOG ALL DA WAY??
``if u look at him.u'll think dat he cant really run
``but guess wat people HE SURE AS HELL CAN x))
``all the way somemore sia
``wifout stopping u know
``Me and sayang only like slow him down
``coz we like stop everytime *haha*
``actually its only ME who keep stopping sia
``sayang sooooo good pei wo walk =]]
``thanks dear dear dear *muackies* -x-
``then wen we reached sembawang park *in less than 30 min BTW*
``we went to the beach shore.played wif the water and sand.it was cool
``then we went to the play ground and played swing!! >.<
``sooo nice.its like we're 10 years old all over again *whheess!*
``we took pictures too.adik like took me and sayang inside the slide *omg wat a torture!*
``its like he made sure we FIT!! force sia force sia *wahaha*
``but hey..it was a nice picture YEA?? =]]
``on the way home
``adik had actually wanted to take bus but too bad me and sayang dun wan *sorry ah* =/
``on da way home we walked to dat bungalow side again *wahahaa*
``had a crazy walk home
``keep using adik's hp to take video =x
``then i accidentally kicked it!! *wahahaha*
``sooo sorry!!! * im sooo guilty!!*
``i like laffed like hell!! sia larr..dat time my cheeks soo pain liao lorr
``adik and sayang sooo funny de =DD

``sayang and me inside the slide =]] *the pain the agony!* wahaha

``the 3 crazy idiots!! =]]

``HUH??? caught me by suprise *weiiirdd*

``i kicked it!!! i kicked adik's hp!! *omg* wat an evidence! sorry!!
``Saturday
``i 4got wat i did no SATURDAY! *omg*
``*haha* im soo da very 4getful sorry
``oh weeelllss..might as well move on to SUNDAY yea?? =]]
``SUNDAY
``morning went to cause way point to DANCE
``learnt da dance for like an hr or 2 only =x
``so yea make a total fool of myself *haha*
``anyways danced wif FANGS NATE and JO
``they totally rock !! x))
``after the dance went to church
``gotta rush coz i scared im late *wahaha*
``made it
``then after church we went to CASPER's party
``damndamndamn his house is like soo NICE!!!!
``ders a freaking pool behind it!! *urgh*
``and his dad grilled chickens for us!
``WE ATE WESTERN STYLE
``wif potatoes and all dat
``coz his daddy is AMERICAN
``too bad i cant gooo swimming on dat day
``*urgh* such a waste!!tsk.tsk.tsk.
``nvm his mummy promised us another party b4 they go for holidays *haha*
``cant wait!! me gonna go swimming on dat freakin pool!! x) *haha*
``*yawn* im so soso bored NOW..end here =]

2005-11-18T06:22:00.000-08:00

``*yiippppee* YESTERDAY went out wif my 3 besties!! SIEN IVY and CHRIS
``1st met chris on yishun mrt *wif sien*
``then met ivy on bugis itself
``we like cant find ivy
``we walked for such a lllooonnnggg llloonnngg time!
``then finally WE SAW HER!
``*woohoo*chiobu ar..they all nv tie hair on dat day
``ony me tie ar =[[ *stupid hair cannot put down*
``WE walk around parco for like 10 min??
``Ivy's mummy was like for slippers..for IVY *harhar* -_-''
``i think she went to work and we gurls went to BUGIS VILLAGE
``to search for siensien present *a.k.a baggy*
``we walk for a long time b4 sien can decide
``then we went to eat at da near by kopitian
``4 of us ate bian mee?? *dunno how to spell* haha
``went back to PARCON take neos!!
``it was like soooo damn damn funny wen we took it
``everyone went crazy
``der was this one shot wen my slippers was near da cam n chris was like smelling it wahha
``too bad we didnt chose dat one =[[
``another crazy one was wen we took pics on da $8 machine
``everyone was like holding up der slippers for da next shot wen da screen shows a chrismax tree
``n da background sound was like those holy holy one
``WE like threw da slippers sooo fast n laff like HELL *wahaha*
``k larr..BASICLY a very funfun fun day wif chris ivy and sien!! X))
``enjoyed myself!! =]] hope they did too

``memories of da memorable day

``WE ROCK WE ROCK!!

``all sooo chiobu!!
``put down hairs somemore!! =xx

2005-11-15T06:01:00.000-08:00

``ADIK and KAKAK special!! *tadddaaa*
``never b4 seen pics of DENISE and HAZWAN =]]
``enjoy!! [[for limited time only]] *wahaha* X))

``dun da 2 of us juz look sooo gd in this pic??
``who could haf tot my adik could look this innocent eh?? *wahaha* =p

``out of da 4 neos
``adik lurrvee this one da best
``dunno y??
``isit bcoz he still look soo sweet and innocent in it?? *wahaha*
``or isit bcoz its sooo style?? SIMPLE but NICE eh?? =]]

``*haha*
``alritey..heres da most CRAZY of dem all
``done by ADIK himself
``nice nice??
``isnt he juz soooo creative!? *wow*
``who tink this hair style suits him?? say aye aye captian! =]]

``anyway juz wanna thank adik
``for da wonderful day dat he've given me =]]
``i enjoyed taking neos wif uUu its juz sooo crazy *wahaha*
``no wait..WE'RE juz CRAZY VERY VERY crazy x))

``ADIK rocks!! but kakak rocks more!! *wahaha*
``adik sure will say NEXT! hurmp!
``kakak n adik for life yea?? =DD

2005-11-14T07:11:00.000-08:00

``*ooohhlalala!!!* such a nice skin!!!
``thanks AGAIN to NJ gurl
``i really really own u BIG time *yea*
``hope u enjoy this thrus yea?? =]]
``cant really blog =xx
``sorry i like spent my whole time blogging for da other acc
``da me n sien share one
``so juz read it der ya =p
``TODAY was ANOTHER fun day x))

``sayang say we're not as CLOSE as b4??
``yea i feel it too
``sorry ah sayang if im like sleepy everytime u talk to me on da phone
``sorry sorry =[[
``next time i drink coffee so dat i cant stay awake =]] juz for u!! *wahaha*
``i gd hor??? *hehe thick-skin*
``anyways really sorry if i make u feel INSECURE??
``i'll try my best to make u feel like last time again alrite??
``all happy n SMILES =DD
``lurrrveee u soo much!! x)
``nth is wrong

2005-11-12T06:06:00.000-08:00

``*hardeharhar!* today was like a total blast!!!!
``adik n sayang made my day *yea*
``thanks thanks thanks xD

``1stly we meet at mac
``suppose to be at 12 meet lau gong but guess wat
``DeNdEn is later as usual ..so went there at abt 1.30 =xx
``then after everything ok liao we went to pasamalang?? *dunno how to spell* =X
``after buy food for sien da meimei she went home
``then 3 of us decided to go swimming at semb. park *yea*
``supose to meet in half an hr time but guess wat again
``im LATE!! like 15min or so??
``*wahaha* im pro wat can i say??
``so at semb.park we went SWIMMING
``i soooo lurve sayangs billabong short!! *urgh*
``adik wans it too..so i guess he haf to wait till his b-day *yea* =]]
``shorts or shirt!? BOTH?? kakak will try ar =xx
``after swim we went to play ground..
``all 3 did da monkey bar *wahaha*
``my hands were RED!! =xx *pain pain*
``then adik wanted to eat ice-cream so i pei him go n buy
``i BLAJA sayang!! *whhheeess* =]]
``oh ya there were like a FAREwell party over there n adik was like following da music
``sometimes he dances too *wahaha*
``so we walked home eating ice-cream *adik's-durian**sayang's-chocolate**den's-YAM*
``we like walk on da dark n creepy path!!
``its like soo quiet so we were like TALK TALK TALK
``its really damndamn creepy n scary like got my sayang n adik der =x
``if not i run all da way ar *wahaha* xD
``then after dat we bought foods n drink*2 crakers**1big gulp**otahssss*
``we went to da play ground n ate it der =]]
``*yea* today was soooo fun!! wish everyday is like this!! X))
``ADIK rocks! SAYANG rocks more!! DEN ROCKS MOST!! *thick-skin wahaha* =xx
``BABOY TAYO!! [[tayo means US]] *winks >.^

``sooooo da piss wif my sis!! =xx

2005-11-11T06:18:00.000-08:00

``haiz haiz haiz ....
``Denden is still as guilty as hell *yea*
``hmm...thinking of putting a password on my bloggy
``so dat not everyone can go in
``would be better rite??? people cant anyhow read my stupid feelings
``so people also wun get hurt =]] GOT TO PREVENT those kind of things from happening again
``or else...im dead ..or im juz plainly superly amazing STUPID! *wahaha*

``anyway cant really blog*yea*
``also dun wanna blog..
``need my pics soo i can tell da story behind it
``need my sayang to send!!
``need my lau gong to scan!! *ahhh*

``i know da code for da password!!
``n i know how to put it!! *whheeessss*
``thanks to fizz darling for telling me XD
``soo peepssss..u all haf 1 last week to visit my bloggy b4 a password it put =]]

2005-11-07T05:33:00.000-08:00

``*omg!* my bloggy is sooo crazy
``i like went to view it and then boo!!
``da song is back!!
``*wahaha* how crazy is dat?? HUH?
``soooo today was like sooo boring boring boring boring
``*haizhaizhaiz* whole day stayed at home!!! cleaned da freakin house again n again!!
``then sayang they all went out haf funfunfunfun =[[
``then sayang 4got abt me liao lor..
``my unexpected eyes said they're sticky... *sobsobsobsob*
``nvmnvmnvm =]] its expected yea??
``who dun wan to stick to her?? she soo damn great lor
``denden is soo not even close to her standard =[[ *haizhaizhaiz*
``tom going to adik place ler...wif lau gong n sayang + kelly?? *dunnno*
``*haha* im soo excited!! can see how adik house is like.. *hmm*
``wondering if clean or not?? *wahahaha* CANT WAIT!
``then wed is 1st month ani wif sayang ar ..going sentosa wif him!! *whheee* XD
``*oh ya* tom is kakak n adik 1 mth ani also!! =]]
``too bad tom me n him not going out..coz kakak got school mahx *sorry* but nvm ar
``thurs we going =]] *hehe* then i tink i go buy clothes at bishan too
``i soooo missing my lau gong!!
``she today didnt go online!! *i was like waiting*
``i soooo miss her!!! =xx *haha*
``then talking to my didi told him WE bought something for him *haha*
``he was like how much???
``i said 15 n he said EX
``he wanna pay us back!? *nononono*
``take it or jiejie will be angry *muhahaha* =p
``past 2 days sayangs' been sick =[[
``im sooo very da worried abt him!! *ahhh*
``hope he gets well soon =]] *yea*

``should i change my background???? should i???
``but how??? *wahaha*

2005-11-02T05:48:00.000-08:00

``today was like lau gong n lau po day!!!
``1st we like went ice-skating wif her pri-school frends
``i dun really like da one in purple but rachel was a chiobu one =]]
``da guys were like so lame..trying to act cool act cool *my arse!* =x
``so we skate skate skate.abit boring coz its like me n ws only
``da other 2 gurls skate on there own 2
``da guys..NO COMMENTS!! =xx
``then we make up some lame excuse to go 1st =x
``we went to causeway.eateateat 1st *we were like so hungry!**after all dat skating* x))
``both of us like eat spicy food.so u can expect some nose dripping n tears *haha*
``im like crying while eating dat tom yam!! *oh lalala* *spicy!! =S
``didnt even get to finish it.. i cant tahan anymore so i juz leave it there =x *wat a waste* haha
``then we like wanted to go to power 9 ..its like from da food court u juz haf to go down ONCE
``n we like went down twice!! somemore lau gong saw it on dat floor she nv stop me from going down!! wahaha
``after dat we went up to power 9 n buy da present for sayang =]] *whhheee*
``then haf to wait 20 min for it to be ready
``while waiting we went to take neoprints!! *haha* its like so so crazy!!
``let me show u some of it =]]

``muhaha this is how crazy we can get!!!! den n sien *da crazy n da hyper* x)

``over all eventhough its kinda boring in da beginning..
``i had lots of fun wif my lau gong!! she totally rock my world!! *muah muah* lots of lurve!

``den n sien *a loving couple* =DD

``i miss my sayang!! =x

2005-11-02T04:17:00.000-08:00

``finally can REALLY REALLY blog sia!!! *yea yea* =]
``so lets begin wif *drum-rolls* YESTERDAY! *haha* -_-"
``__[[da beginning]]__
``so yesterday was like 1st nov ya??
``morning i was like damn damn bored =x
``i cleaned da house.vacccuummmm here n there *yea i know im hard workin* =]] *haha*
``then smsed my sayang.talked to him.plan to go out on da afternoon wif him.
``so i was like waiting for him to sms me wen he reach my block
``n i was like cleaning up da messed my sis made!! *again*
``wen i happened to glance outside da window!! =S
``directly where im standing was a shadow of a man!!
``well i was like walking towards my kitchen while i was looking out
``n da shadow move like a mirror image of me!! *ahhh*
``den waited for da ``shadow to walk towards da neighbouring house *coz at 1st i tot its my neighbour u see
``but guess wat it din pass !!! it juz dissappeared!!
``i was like soo freak out!!!! *my heart keep a beat* =[[
``___[[da middle]]___
``went down to meet sayang
``both of us wearing black x)) *yooohoo*
``told him abt wat happened n he was like scarying me MORE! =x *badbadBAD*
``he was like singing to me *theres a TIME n PLACE for EVERTHING**theres a REASON y CRETAIN PEOPLE MEET!!!* i was like *urgh!! SAYANG!!*
``then we went to bugis.walkwalkwalk.talktalktalk.haf fun fun fun =]]
``some of da shops da we visited.BILLABONG.FRESHBOX.TOYSHOP.=xx.BOOKSTORE
``n many many many more!!
``we went to long john silver to haf dinner..then we went to take neoprint!! *again* haha -_-''
``yes we juz lurve taking pictures together!! coz WE look soooo soooo cute!!! =x *thick-skin*
``went home took da train to marina bay then went back so we can sit *lazy pigs*haha
``__[[the end]]___
``then we arrived at sembawang
``decided to go to playground 1st ..
``then *cough**cough**cough* hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha =D
``asked him not to send me to my block coz im scared my dad frends *who come to my house* see us =x
``Denden will be so soo mati if dat happens!!! =xx *haha*
``end of yesterday..at nite talk on da phone until 2+am =]] *im lurving it!**im lurving him!*

2005-10-31T06:41:00.000-08:00

*whhhheeee!!*all abt 2e3!!! a class dat rocks to the max!!!
``we had alot of fun and wonerful times together as a class =]
``our teachers were great n we enojyed..chap 5/6 da most!! X)

*whooott!!* our darling form teacher MRS GEOGRE!! doesnt she look extra good in this pic!?
``shes da one whos always been behind us supporting us all da way!! eventhough shes strick n my seem like she dun really care..deep inside she lurve us!! *she told us so* =]]

``2e3 ! x) ..everyone all smiley smiley..all happy happy *haha*
``eventhough we were put to shame in da beginning of da year..we buckle up n show them wat we're made of!
*yiippppeeeee* we rock we rock we rock we rock we rock we rock we rock!!! =xx

``more of 2e3!! can see denden mah?? quim behind PESTERING me again!! >=((

``the ladies!! *farhanah**atiqah**Nabila**zahima* all sooo sooo pretty n nice!! =]]

``more of da ladies!!! *izzati*hajar*hafiza*sarah*
``yea we got a pair of twin sister!! rnt they cute!? x]

``now for da gentlemen!!! the guys who bought us down fall but lifted us too =]
``the way they said sorry during da sec 2 camp was sooo soo sweet x) ADORALIOUS!!! >.<

``the malay guys!! *harizi*danial*``my sit mate!! irritated him every single day!! =x hhaha* Quim``hockey national player!! sooo gd at hockey until i wanna whack him!! *Nasir!! ``clown!!

``guys eventhough we didnt get back our trophy i know deep inside dat we still rock to da max!!
``we did quiet well during da sport carnival for sec 2 ..we only lost by 3 marks!! so it wasnt dat bad =]]
``eventhouh we get seperated next year..remember the happy times we shared
``the laffter n joy [[nonsense n crap]] dat we did in class [[eps during chap 5/6]] *haha* -_-
``UNITED WE STAND TOGETHER WE SUCCED!!

``e3 unite let's show our might let's show them how the e3 fight...walking down the hills with our head held high ain't got nth tat will break our mind...coz we will we will rock u ...we will we will rock u ...haha

``copy~rite 2e3!!!

``sorry de lau gong if i didnt talk to u properly in msn i doing my bloggy de
``love u lots! be happy bahx..
``i still feel like u still sad de..no more crying k?? =]]
``muah muah

2005-10-30T05:21:00.000-08:00

``ahhhhh .. 2e3!! 2e3!!! 2e3!!!
``eventhough we're gonna be seperater next year..WE stILL rocks!!

2005-10-29T07:19:00.000-07:00

hmm....cannot blog now a days ..sooo many things to do...
``my frendster profile!! ahh!!
`put edit pics sizes...haiz haiz haiz..
``soo much to do..soooo lil time!!

2005-10-26T03:51:00.000-07:00

*wwwwwwwhhhheeeee* congrats to all 2N2 students!!! champion class of da year! =]] u guys really deserve it
``for a second i thought it was gonna be 2e2 *luckily* 2n2 saves da day! x)) haha
``sia lah if 2e2 wins i think i'll really be very VERY dissapointed wif this year sport fest for sec 2
``they total dun serve da trohpy! hurmp hurmp hurmp haha =x
``play until push down people * sooo rough* like so despo to win sia..somemore during da captains ball cheat! only 2 boys were allowed to play..where can haf 3 sia!? like dat 2e3 also can! hurmp hurmp!!
``nvm nvm nvm let them be bahx at least they nv win da trophy hehehehehehe *evil*
``i was wondering..is canberra soooo pop now dat they cant even effort to make a new trophy this year???
``y must use 1e3 trophy de!? haiz!! =[[..at least da champions deserves more than a hand-me-down trophy sia
`` *wooootttss!!* 2n2 totally rocks!!! rocks da whole sporty festy rocks my world too =xx haha -_-''

*yesterday* like damn angry wif da lamer sia..not gonna go into details...gonna hate him hate him till i die!

*today* sporty festy... kinda fun..abit tiring tired from screaming of cheers *haha*
``sooo happy at least 2e3 won da best cheer =]] dats wat we've been aiming for *n we got it!!*
``haha..okok smiply happiness for us =]]

``cant blog liao..gonna write more next time..
``now going church must get ready ar =))
``sayang juz sms ..something wrong wif wei sien n mine bloggy!
``JANNAH HELP!

2005-10-24T07:00:00.000-07:00

2005-10-24T06:53:00.000-07:00

2005-10-22T02:08:00.000-07:00

``whhhheeee!!! =] finally change into a new skin as usual thanks to nj gurl~~~!!! woootttss!!! =]
``but i dun understand da codes its like still mix up wif my last time bloggy...da billabong one..so i cant put in da pictures yet..but nvm ar..new skin already gd..hehe..thanks thanks..i also did wei sien n mine's bloggy..quiet nice actually..wan see..heres da linky.. www.watching-over-one-another.blogspot.com ..any comments tag at da taggy..n linky us too ya? =]
`so wats been happening to me this past few days?? well..on wednesday i bought 2 new shoes..both converse..hehe im like spoil!! =x ..wooottss!! denden is spoil spoil spoil!! xDDDD ..thursday?? went to church so didnt meet my sayang..friday didnt go to school..haf sore throat haha ...then went out wif my sayang..
``we went to city hall..walk walk walk talktalktalktalktalk take pictures everytime..somemore most is my pic sia..hurmp..i sad!! ..then i blanja my sayang hehe..1st time sia..nvm nvm ..it wun be da last muahhahaha =]
``then today whole day online sia..sore throat got wrost..now hafing fever also ..
``then decided to change my skin..lucky NJ help me..i couldnt do it wifout her..whhheeee!! she rock she rock she rock!!! =]]
``now still hafnt eaten lunch..hungry hungry hungry...theres like soo many chocolate in da house..i feel like eating all of them!!! but cant...later i cannot talk sia..somemore tom is VJ b-day..i almost 4got sia luckily i saw him online n saw his nick ..well i dun haf any present for him yet..i guess i could make a card?? wat sia..MAKE dun wan ar..i juz sing to him happy b-day so tom rain rain rain rain rain rain rain ...hehe =x nvm lar..NOT my b-day hahahahahhaa..BAD!? yea...

``happy b-day to u
``happy b-day to u
``happy b-day to VJ!!!
``happy b-day to uUu!! haha =x was dat lame or wat??
``nvm..happy b-day VJ!! may all ur wishes come true!!
``remember we are not students WE ARE UR FRENDS!! =]] *must remember dun 4get!!

``kk i shall put some pictures from yesterday =]]

``guess who?? hehe ..not from yesterday but on wednesday..dun he look better wif dat hair style?? haha..
``sayang sooooooooooooooooo adorable sia!!

``sayang n me on da roof top or ''da durian'' whhheeesss!!! =]

``its US again..AZRIE n DENISE =D

``kk..shall end my bloggy here..maybe later on write another one ar..yoohoo!!

2005-10-21T23:59:00.000-07:00

2005-10-19T05:23:00.000-07:00

``gonna update my bloggy b4 i went down n meet sayang.. hehe
``yesterday..hurmp ``im like a total jerk..urgh!!!
``sayang im soooo sorry!! i know u said its ok but i feel dat its not..im like sooo guilty!!
``ahhhh..how can u not scold me!? plz plzplzplzplzplzplzplz scold me!! `
`i would really feel much better if u did...u can everytime give in to me..ur like spoiling me
``i like it but its bad though hehe ...LOVE is all abt GIVE n TAKE
``im soo sorry if i juz keep taking ..i'll give in more ok??
``its like ur really too gd to be true..is this real or juz a fantasy?? huh??huh??huh??
``someone plz tell me da truth!?
``if its all juz a dream..DUN EVER WAKE ME UP~~ i wish this never ends.. `
`am i like believing in 4vever?
``i didnt believe in it even wen i wan wif saf..geee...guess sayang make me a believer =x
``oh wellss..is dat gd or bad???
``who knows...gonna enjoy him as long as possible..
``sayang u lots n lots n lots n lots n lots n lots n lots..muah muah muah muah muah muah muah hehe =]
``oh ya..I LURVE UR NEW HAIR!! u look more ADORABLE NOW!! hehe `

`THE USED ["I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes)"]
``Seemed to stop my breath \ My head on your chest\ Waiting to cave in\ From the bottom of my... Hear your voice again \ Could we dim the sun \And wonder where we've been \Maybe you and me \So kiss me like you did \My heart stopped beating \Such a softer sin

[[chorus]] ``I'm melting, I'm melting) \In your eyesI lost my place \Could stay a while \And I'm melting \In your eyes \Like my first time \That I caught fire \Just stay with me \Lay with me \Now

``Never caught my breath \Every second I'm without you I'm a mess \Ever know each other \Trust these words are stone \swhy cuts aren't healing \Learning how to love

[[chorus]] `

`You could stay and watch me fall \And of course I'll ask for help \Just stay with me now \Take my hand \We could take our heads off \stay in bed just make love that's all \Just stay with me now

[[chorus]]

``In your eyes \Let's sleep till the sun burns ou \tI'm melting in your eyes (I'm melting in your eyes) \Let's sleep till the sun burns out \I'm melting in your eyes

``i failed my mths n sci by the way ..=x ``went skimming wif foo n liew at sembawang park ``sun burn!!! arrgghhh!! ``sayang still hafnt reach sembawang...nvm must be patience de..=] ``long time nv talk to my lau gong..sorry bahx..love u lots de =] omg..lau gong jealous of sayang!!! haha!!! omg..both are sooo adorable!!! wanna hug wanna hug!! she keep hurmp hurmp..then keep saying i got him then dun wan her..ahhh!!! soooo cute!!!!

2005-10-16T06:56:00.000-07:00

``oookkkkkeeeeyyy ...gonna make nj happy by updating my bloggy =x haha .. happy mah?? see im sooo gd..i listened to u...its like 3 days after u reminded me to update my bloggy hehe ..
``so exams are over n its time to party!!!wooootttsss!!! its juz fun fun fun n more fun!!! =]
``abit worry abt my result..i know i totally flunk my maths..no hard feeling though since its expected..i dun get F9 im already very very happy =]
``i juz wish i dun failed my ENG!!! im soooo worried abt it!!! urgh!!! i knew i should haf done section B 1st!!
``hurmp hurmp..angry wif myself!! woootttsss!! =x im going crazy again wahahaha..

``soooo this past few weeks...lots of things had happened ..lots of wonderful things!!hehe except da exam i guess...but actually da exam bought us more closer..so i should thank da exam..wahahaa THANKS!!!
``not gonna let u go juz bcoz of a bad hair cut..im better than dat ar sayang =]
``gonna hold u tight tight ....n nv let u go ``hehe -_-''
``kk gotta go..write more next time..
``y is my adik sooo lonely!? still got kakak here mah..still got us..dun be lonely ya... =]

``SMILE ALWAYS ..

2005-10-08T06:44:00.000-07:00

``..woookkkeyy..
``gonna write a short one..
``sakura asked me to write..
``well life for me is great...cant get any better..
``though im really stress up abt my exams..
``think i failed my maths paper 1 already..
``but nvm gonna try my best at paper 2 eventhough i still feel dat im gonna fail it wahahaa
``a mnth ago i barely know u
``now we're sticky as glue.. =x
``i hope dat u will wait for me..
``wait for me to fall for u..
``wait for me to get over him.....
``fade away still rocks..hope we all can go out together this holiday..
``maybe we all wun be in da same class anymore...but i hope we'll still be da fade aways
``im thinking of making our own fade away jersey 2005 ..how abt it guys??
``brenda design!!
``love my lau gong lots..
``people dun be sooo stress out abt ur exam..
``gd luck eh!!

2005-10-07T06:40:00.000-07:00

``alrite finally can blog sia~~~!!!!
``woootttsss!!! =x
``like how long was it since i last updated my bloggy!!?
``people are getting bored of reading da same blog over n over again wahaha...sooo sorry guys.. -.-''

``anyway i wanna do my frendster!! wahaha

2005-09-21T02:18:00.000-07:00

``haha ...now in school using computer sia =]
``today ..ahhh..stress sia ..got english remedial then got maths also haiz..
``nvm got to haf stress now so i can do well in my end of da year exam ..haha
``jia you everyone!!!!! -.-'' ok im sort..
``its going to be 1 week since my b-day..n i juz gotten another b-day present today xD
``people still owns me worx!!!

``so far i've gotten ... $50 ..rip curl bag ..billabong bag .. roxy cap -dream cap!!- roxy pencil box..
``a teddy bear =] a cake...chocolates!!! *yummy! a movie treat .. n free lunchs n my HP back!!! like finally sial!!! haha
``parents still own me ADDIDAS shoes!!! n MP3!!! muhahhaa ..
``oh i've also gotten a b-day card..n many b-day smsed n many b-day gettings!! 4got abt b-day testi!!! pingping wrote me one haha!! happy n shocked =] yeeeewww!!! XD ..CANT BELIEVE HE GREETED ME!! haha...but then i think he haf no plan to greet me lar..maybe bcoz i talk to him 1st dats y he said..i tink if i nv talk he wun even bother sia =[ haha nvm. ..

``thanks to all my frends...i haf had a wonderful b-day i lurve da cake!!!
``FADE AWAY ROX my bloody socks!!! >.< haha
``thanks to my lau gong to 4 giving me another bag i lurve it i lurve u!! haha
``lau gong i think our bloggy got error i go check again bahx =]

``special thanks to AZRIE ..haha i had a great time wif u last saturday!!! >.<
``uUu made my b-day worth while... but im still wondering y u keep crying for me...??
``like every nite sia...dun cry leh...coz i feel very wat... like im not really worth ur tears..
``dun wan anyone to cry or stress for me sia ...n sorry i messed up ur table..i didnt mean too.. =[
``haha i lurve da free lunch n free movie..n da baggy!! =D
``if im gonna like someone..im gonna like him bcoz his him...not bcoz of wat he can n did n will do for me... but bcoz his himself..n his not hidding away his inperfection or lying abt anything....
``its bcoz u care... its bcoz ur there ..its bcoz ur trying so hard..its bcoz ur u...n nobody else
``u ARE IMPORTANT!! juz got to find a way to prove it to u =]

`ooh ya...who da hell is whatthehell!!?? anyhow tag on my bloggy sia hrump hrump hurmp~~!!!

``i dun believe dat wawan started da fight ..i believe n i TRUST HIM~!

2005-09-14T03:27:00.000-07:00

`` ..trm 16?? ahhhhhhhh!!! ..im not getting any younger!!!
``i need a life!!!! hahaha!!!
``i think im so gonna be disappointed bahx..
``dunno y?? but i see my frends like they all dun care sial
``but really cant blame coz now got a lot of problem..
``so gotta be more understanding de!!yes!!! jai you denden!!
``tom...juz another day...not really looking 4ward to it..
``coz i know nth special will happen..
``will he wish me?? haha?

``i hope its not me =x

I'll always remember It was late afternoonIt lasted foreverAnd ended so soon(yeah)You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark grey sky I was changedchorusIn places no one would find All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)It was then that I realized That forever was in your eyesThe moment I saw you cry (cry)The moment thatI saw you cry It was late in September And I'd seen you before(and you were)You were always the cold one But I was never that sureYou were all by yourselfStaring up at a dark grey sky I was changed In places no one would find All your feelings are deep inside (deep inside)It was then that I realized That forever was in your eyesThe moment I saw you cryI wanted to hold youI wanted to make it go away I wanted to know youI wanted to make your everything...alright I'll always remember It was late afternoonIn places no one will findBaby, oh no noforever was in your eyeswas there that I realized that forever was in your eyesThe moment I saw you cry Baby Cry! The moment that I saw you cry Oh no no I think I saw you cry The moment I saw you cry (fade out)I wanted to know you I wanted to know youI wanted to know you

``dun cry de....we're still here... =]
``i feel ur pain!!

2005-09-11T07:31:00.000-07:00

i dun call people a liar if their NOT
``u are a liar...u haf a nerve to act like u didnt lied!!!
``omg!!! wtf!!!???
``anyways gd luck on ur surgery..over all i still care...sucks!!
``i'll juz pretend i dun see..hear u
``wun even talk to u anymore..haiz..

2005-09-09T03:07:00.000-07:00

``today...sian..suppose to go skimming wif foo..but then dunno lar...
``waiting for norlia's call...nv get any!! -_-''
``somemore somebody told me something...lost my mood
``from happy-go-lucky mood to angry n hatred
``omg....such a liar mannnn =x
``liar liar liar liar

``alam ko lahat ng lies mo...
``galit na galit ako
``ang kapal din naman talaga ng muka mo noh
``to think dat eh chase kita kahit na sira ulo mo??
``keep dreaming ya??
``do u think na baliw na baliw ako sayo??
``haha!!! no way
``shit sial ...

``someone should really teach ken a lesson...wootss!!!
``wat an asshole!!!!
``such a fuck up!!!! argh!!!

2005-09-08T01:45:00.000-07:00

``soooo far its been a great holiday ya??
``everyday also go out one muhahaha
``but then i've finish one of da homework wooottss!
``anyway b-day next week liaosss..cant wait cant wait cant wait~~~!!

``hint!! billabong roxy quiksilver..gotta rush coz im going out to play badminton wif wan n az..

2005-09-07T07:34:00.000-07:00

``ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
``monday was damn fun lor!!!
``sunburn though!! pain pain pain
``tuesday went to play bball
``not bad not bad
``today went to watch da maid..wottss!!
``soooo far its been a gd holiday =]
``today erm ..7th eh??
``should haf been 2 months..
``n i've already saved up money to treat u to a movie..buy u stuff..wottss..too bad huh..
``nvm nvm
``b-day coming!!! omg!! presents!!! haha!!!
``i hope something special happen =]

2005-09-04T04:46:00.000-07:00

``MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE ROX!!!! wooottss!! =pP

``fav song IM NOT OK (I PROMISE)

``fav lines ...
``if u wanted honesty dats all u haf to say..
``trust me im not ok!!
``IM NOT OK
``IM not JOKING
``IM NOT ``O F-U-cking K

``winks

2005-09-04T03:37:00.000-07:00

``woootsss...nice?? i edited it myself.. ``haha
``sooo proud of ME!! XD `thick-skin
``___[[05` memories ]]__
``got da n2 peeps...
``got da fadeaways
``got da dancers
``got my lau gong!! yoohoo!!

``y now a days sooo many broken people sial =[
``haiz ...i wish i could help to fix them...but sorry to say..i cant..coz i myself AM broken as well =]
``ohh wells..we gotta stick 2gether ya?? we can pull this through together..
``im half way out of it liaos..like i dun care so much now a days ya???? *m good!! woootss!! haha -_-" lier? nah
``oh ya..did i wrote abt a new god-bro?? hehe ..a new didi!! guess who guess who?? huh?huh?huh?

``now making da final details for da BIG day tom!! yooohooo!!
``i cant wait ya?? =] excited sial...haha

2005-09-03T05:50:00.000-07:00

As long as I live theres more I can give
Theres never enough (I'll Give) Anything but up
as far as I go theres one thing I'll know
Its never to tough oh no (I'll Give) Anything but up

The days and the years
The time and the tears
The sound and the sight
of laughter and light
The healing and hurt
The hours of work
The smooth and the rough
(I'll give) anything but up(I'll give) anything but up(I'll give) anything but up

``new song of hilary duff..nice??
``haha
`` fav line ``
``Some girls are not quite what they seem ``A twisted lack of self esteem ~~~!!!!!

``today...wootss..sure tomorrow get sore throart liaosss...
``went for da recording...sang sooo many songs sial..haiz..if i can skip it i would!! har!
``then somemore today..eat all spicy food..from morning till nite..haha..nv drink water also.. =]
``hope i get sore throat..then can haf fever also..
``maybe poeple will pay more attention to me?? muhahaha ``attention seeker hey?
``y sooo many people hate him sial??
``haha..but then cant really blame them since i dun really know him =]

``haiz..my lau gong..regret chosing us ....
``chosing me... ='[
``hurt sial.....

``oh weelllss...juz like ivy said...if u chose to lurve....u got to be ready wif da pain dat comes wif it.. =]
``this goes for all those heartbroken ya?? esp to b-day gurl...
``dun haf him still haf us rite??lets juz happy go lucky!! yohoooo!!
`let go of da past..n juz break free ...easier said than done ...ya i know =] but at least try..

``i wanna see a real smile for once on ur pretty face

2005-09-02T06:30:00.000-07:00

``haha?? ..plz dun believe wat he said alrite??
``juz told him all dat so he'll leave me alone?? haha
`` --___--''
``once an ass-hole ALWAYZ an ass-hole muhahaha ...
``my fav phrase now ... ``my ass``
``keep telling them...haha esp hazwan n foo =]
``but im sure they dun mind one lor...
``cant wait till monday...ya??

2005-09-02T05:35:00.000-07:00

``this little dove means freedom...its time for uUu to let go ..i know its hard it will take time
``i will be there if uUu need me soooo''..meaningful ya?? chris gave me this paper bird wif this words
``wen i was crying my eyes out on monday at da art room..thanks dotter...this words will always be mark in my soul...i will remember it n think of uUu..i may seems like i dun really care of wats happening to ur lives..but da truth is i do..juz dunno how to show u all lar.. =] ..nv write abt u all doesnt mean i've forgotten mah..how to 4get frends like u all sial?? who can 4get all da crazy thingswe did? haha ..rite now..as u all know my mind is flying here n there..n i've been really moody...im sorry alrite? i might haf said something wrong..or maybe didnt show enoff affection..plz give me time..my wounds are help...but da scars remains..juz need more time for it to fade away ... =]
``eh FADE AWAY ...haha..we ARE FADE AWAYS .... ..a group of gurls..going through all da ups n downs of life.. TOGETHER
``supporting each other ..loving one another..lets keep rocking ya??

``who ar...tag at my bloggy said i've 4gotten dem sial !? tsktsktsk.. i nv lor
``specialy uUu!! ..haha...i dunno y..but all ur advices all da thing u told..it all hit da missing places...
``its like..u know how i really feel deep inside..its like u can read my emotions like a book..wow
``ivy ur soooo amazing..seriously...everything...everything u said is my feelings...omg...
``it amazes me soo much..it brings me comfort n it scared da he ll out of me!! wahahaha..
``its like..wen u said those stuff it juz hurt leh...i dunno y..maybe its bcoz its my true feelings..
``i really juz wan to 4get abt it liaos...but how canr ite? if i keep briniging it out..haha i really dunno myself liaos..soooo sorry
``i juz wan to keep running away from my feelings n nv look back...coz it hurts

sorry abt juz now...maybe i gave u all cold shoulder...anyway thanks i had a blast today..shopping for ``ahem`` haha..feel like a rich gurl now haha ...gosh i finally chose one!!! thanks!!

``guys u are not 4gotten alrite?

``lau gong..y sooo broken de....dun cry de...

2005-09-01T05:44:00.000-07:00

``teacher's day!! woootttss!! wat a day..~~most memorable day ever =] haha
``tears at da beginning n tears at da end... ``haha wow..
``2e3 rox my soxs!!!!
``hip-hop dancers ``rulez!! ``sexy hot hothot!!! hehe =]
`ok im going crazy all over again
``shall not write abt da teachers day...cant bare to share them muhaha
``1 more thing though.. ``lil-ang hui fong is sooo not lil anymore!~ ahh..wen did u grow dat tall!? omg..
``da hair!!~ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh dam-n spikey!!!! haha..``woottss!!

``erm..today...wat happened today???]
``i woke up early..abt 7 am..then get ready to go out..
``8.30 went to meet them at da mrt station..
``haikal n liew so long sial..so i went home change clothes 1st...go back there..everyone was there liaos
``take mrt...talk talk lkta blah blah blah..went to da bus interchange..haha...we dunno which bus to take
``foo asked around..finially ``ahhhaa!! bus 189 ..
``ask foo to ask da driver where to get off....me n haz was like..``go foo..``foo u rox!! cheering foo on wahha
``arrived there...look around..buy new skimboard..sooo much cheaper than my 1st one..n sooo much better~~ its in shape.. =] ...
``dunno y i also want to buy a new one..guess da old one brings back too many painful memories hey??
``im also scared later if i use da old one too much..then da paint wun stay...it'll fade away juz like our lurve =]
``so i dun dare use..dun dare repaint also haha... dunno y..??
``then we all bought one board each except foo..haha..liew haz n haikal...wahh all new board sial..
``then me n haz went home to eat lunch..both pop sial..meet at da traffic lite then go buy paint n meet up wif da rest near haikal house..after dat...paint paint...ended up me n haz go paint at my house there.. at my floor.. haha -_-''
``love my new skimboard sial!!
``design is nice..but da colour abit dead ar...nvm lar..i use 1st then haz said he had bright green..then i can re-paint my board..woottss!! =xx

``y cant hussien understand?? =[
``haiz...im sorry alrite..but noooo
``nooo need scold me also....sooo sorry

``well..most probably this is da last one...i sayang uUu madly...truely..deeply.. too bad
``oh wells...``i know im gd wif or wifout u now =] juz feel better wif u..sobsob haha -_-'' jk
``i've won our bet ya?

``me trying to skim ``haha!!!
``sunday erm...28th isit?? no idea..
``cameraman... foo... =]

``lau gong..plz relax..really hope to see u this mon..love ya..muah muah muah

2005-08-27T04:29:00.000-07:00

``hehe...me n dee!! [[mummy ,dotter]]
``dunno y now adays also nv post..juz keep putting pics inside..guess nth inresting is happening to me yet
``patient gurl~~its da key to everyting =]
``cant wait till teachers day sial...but i guess i haf to cancell da class t-shit thingy..
``erm..too many tings to organise..no time sial
``got da dance...somemore she told me last min class party..
``expected me to organise it myself..haiz..``see lar my plan ruin liaos
``if she told me earlier then can collect pics of my class..ask reeza do a slide show for us..
``then can show it during da class party..aiyoyoyoyo...
``better start taking action now..its like 3 days away..damn excited abt it =]

``*Nj thanks for forgiving me =]
``thanks for da codes..lol i know i flooded ur acc ..wooppzz!!

``wats happening to my lau gong!!??
``huh?huh?huh?
``im missing da gurl i knew..while talking to a broken uUu ...
``haiz... ='[
``lau gong ar..u go ahead watch movie lar..u dun care wat ``he say lar
``y allow him to ruin ur day..aiyoyoyo..juz go ahead n haf fun..i shall drown him to da sea wen we go to sentosa..make him drink alot of sea water until he very full wif it liaoss.. wahaha...make him regret wat he say =]

2005-08-27T04:12:00.000-07:00

``aren't they cute!!!!?? ``omg..``my cousins!! wooottsss~~

``wahaha..guess which one is me??
``from left to rite... erm..Jermanly...my cousin but more like my oldest sis..
``ME da middle..lol..``baby botak!! =x
``and my sis... Dannah =]

2005-08-26T06:02:00.000-07:00

``we were once upon a time in lurve__everyting was so rite n we were so happy
``but i was sooo high i didnt recognised da signs___uUu were floating away from me__
``in ur heart where i've slowly faded away__uUu can feel me no more

``wen i looked into ur eyes __u made me wanna believe dat ``forever exsisted__wen it dun
``i remembered how clear ur eyes look wen u were lying on my face__
``uUu make everyone believe in uUu___u juz wanna be da sweet n innocent guy who uUu were once b4

``our memories together will nv fade away __
``it will be keep close to my heart n mark in my soul__
``i still believe da guy who u once were..is hidden beneath da mask dat u wear__ =]
``da guy..who i once lurve so dearly...``..plz change back

2005-08-24T17:47:00.000-07:00

``wooootttsss!!!! now in school using the com again ``wahaha
``i juz lurve thrusdays!!! 2 hours of MT >.<"

``ahem____anyway later Mt WUN use the com liaossss...
``gotta do my homework =]
``since his been getting gd result i was thinking to myself..i better buckle up n catch up wif the rest..cant believe dat i've only passed my science!! ``ahhhhhh!! ..gotta go liaosss...arjuna very da kan chong sial!! ``wahaha leave me here ``sobsobs..

``anyway yesterday rite...afternoon stayed back..he was there
``n i found myself breathing normally again.. guess im over him liaoss
``his not da safuan dat i've once love so much...he changed
``if u can breath..so can i ..wahaha.. im gd wif or wifout u?? nnaah..
``i've been gd all along..im juz BETTER wif u!! =]

2005-08-24T06:40:00.000-07:00

``haha..
``4get abt my wat?? 1st entry wen we broke up?
``i like said i didnt cry much wen he broke up wif me
``actually..its been 3 days since dat day..n i juz kept having break downs... =[
``in school also haf one leh..*aiyoo gurl pull urself together!!
``monday was during art class 1st period...told them....cry
``then recess told n2 peeps cried...avoided him..coz scared he saw me...wahaha then i very malu one..my face wet wif my tears..n my eyes red also for crying too much liaosss..
``tuesday..erm no maths leeson...listen to MP3 wif chris...
``then suddenly 1st song was *predictable * n i was like omg...started crying all over again..wahah they must be tinking dat im sort...cry for no reason...still remembered they're blank faces wen tears started falling... **all sooo adorable!!*
``then i said da song then chris quickly change..ivy was like .... *its ok she needs to cry*
``then at nite hazwan called me...coz he also got prb abt wei sien..then we talk then he asked abt me n safuan...n i was like soo idiotic!! **ahhh** i was crying on da phone!!! hazwan was like.. **are u ok?? gosh....cry cry cry..im such a cry baby!!!
``haiz... he changed alot .....its not like b4..so theres no used holding on..... juz let it go...it would be better for me...n for him =]
``congrats to him.......for getting gd result n improving on his studies!!! wahaha..
``proud of ya.. *winks*

``there is no other guy.......
``theres only uUu in my heart....

``laptop is soooo nice to use!! * wahahaha!!

2005-08-23T04:44:00.000-07:00

``omg!!!!! did i spread it???? huh????
``i swear i haf no idea...plz dun think dat im acting like i dunno..but i really haf no idea!!
``i didnt even know u were angry at me...``gosh..until i went to my bloggy n saw ur taggy.. ``omg
``did i really?? *ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
``i dunnno...im soooo clueless...seriously..
``if i did..maybe i did it unknowingly...u know my mind is flying nowadays..
``im soooo sorry...really REALLY damn sorry!!! ..gosh gosh gosh..i dunno
``i haf no clue if i really did or not..
``cant remember spreading it all... ?? wahhhh ='[ ...im sooo sorry plZ 4give me?

``wat really hurts me da most???
``was wen i read ur bloggy..

``well....i noe that i can breath with or without u.......im happy to see u happy with people around u...not to bother about me.....well...that all ok...dun let our memories fade away.............``

``ouch..ur words really hurt me alot...wow...
``im soo glad u can breat while im still panting for breathes...sooo glad ur soo happy wif ur frends..while i shed tears every single day .. =]
``u really are incredible..if u think im happy...think again.. =[
``if u think i dun care abt u....think again..damnit i care too much liaos wen u obviously DUN!!
``everyday cry cry cry..n u..smile smile smile...
``ouch..

2005-08-21T04:54:00.000-07:00

``wahahaha!!! or isit ``ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh cant really blog!!
`gotta rush wif this one..my sis *oh such a nag!! haha.. -jk
``but this is tooo wasted if i dun write it..
``juz now went to chong pang..n theres like sooo many crows!!!
``brendy..which i shall now call the *omg queen!!
``kept saying ``omg de! ``omg sooo many crows!! more than da jurong bird park!! wahaha
``n she was like ``omg i cant even heard myself !! sooooo cute i tell u!! she kept omg here n there!!! wootzz!!

*sis sis..u are such a mother mole =]

2005-08-20T22:58:00.000-07:00

`haha!!!! `omg!!!! *Nj gurl!!! uUu rox my socks!!! yohooo!! thanks for da new bloggy skin!!!
`muah muah muah!!! i love it!! love da song as well!!! `wahahaha
`soooo hyper now .. =]

erm..k lets get down to serious blogging `muhahaha

`juz as he suffers da embarassement..
`i must suffer it as well..
`yesterday i was well..dump?
`for no reason?? wahhaa..no lar...he juz dun feel da same liaoss..
`so i ok nvm ...things like dis happens so i gotta face da facts n be strong..
`life goes on?? LONELY life goes on..wahaha
`i new this is coming
`but i juz didnt expected it to come this soon..
`n sooo sudden somemore..
`haiz..
`i've imagine it...i felt it rite to my bones...
`='[ ...
`dunno y..but i didnt cry as much as i did wen i broke up wif danny..haha
`eventhough im da one who broke up wif him..i still cried like wat...
`but wen He broke up wif me ...i cried wen i called wei sien...after dat nooo more..
`maybe bcoz i hafnt tell them yet...wahaha
`bet tom...schools gonna be flooded wid my tears!!
`wahahhahaha...nvm lar..
`i know this will happen since i've dump him..someone is gonna dump me rite back..
`haiz...cant blog properly...haha
`at least we're stll frends..
`in da end..im standing at da beginning...wif him..wahaha

` cage bird can never be truely happy
`be free *i love uUu
`i'll be underneth ur wings
`so u wun free fall out of da sky
`i'll support u from da shadow
`n cheer u on wif silence.. =]

`frends 4ever___ *

dun 4get our times together...
`dun 4get da movies we watch..
`dun 4get me + U staring at da stary sky
`dun 4get me + U swimming on da waves..
`dun 4get me + U cycling..me on ur bicyle...wahaha..weirdd memories..but damn fun
`dun 4get orchard... neoprints.. keychain...which u broke by da way!! `wahaha =]
`dun 4get me + U painting my skimboard..
`dun 4geteverything.....dun 4get how u felt...it was all real......... =]

2005-08-20T05:24:00.000-07:00

``woootssss!! fade away logo!!! >.<
``haha ..someday we'll make our very own fade away company!!! `` -__-''
``ya rite..keep dreaming..

``[[da new n improve fade aways____]]
``Ivy ___attach
``Jac ___single
``Brendy__single
``Dee__single
``Chris__single
``Me!! ___single!!! `yooohhoo
`we shall stick together through thick n thin!!
``love ya guys!!! muah muah muah!!

``lau gong n me!!! haha
``loving each other till da end...actually shes my 3rd lau gong..but love her da most de =]

``specially thanks to *Nj for helping me get da code n trusting me wif her password..yoohooo!!

2005-08-20T00:41:00.000-07:00

[IMG]http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v719/nj_gerl/fadeawaylogo.jpg[/IMG]
testing

2005-08-17T17:34:00.000-07:00

``woootss!!`` haha....going hyper again..guess wat!? im using the computer in school haha..
``now MT period Mr Mus allowed me to use the com muhahahahha..somemore today haf 2hr of Mt =]
``juz now morning supose to walk wif u?? how come u didnt come?? huh??huh??huh?? wahaha
``did u called my mum hp early in da morning??? ``omg de!!!`` aiyoyoyoyoooooo ...
``y!!?? u know theres this thing called housephone?? y called da hp wen its not even wif me?? didnt i told u so ?? -____-''
``nvm lar..next time must listen to me wen i said dun reply liaoss... =]

``erm though its a little too late to say this...actually its VERY VERY LATE to say this..
``but dun care lar..i'll say it anyway..

``*ahem``
``happy happy b-day to mel jiejie!!!! >.<
``lots of love from me to u!!! muah muah muah muah muah muah muah muah `haha im sort
``your present is still wif me!!! ahhhhh!!! tom i'll give u kk???

`supose to do my compo rite now ..but i think i rather do my bloggy..haha
`compo can wait during history period..which is after this lor..
`yesterday haf home-econ we did this so called ``bread pudding`` it actually tastes nice..
`if only it look more nicer... nicer?? actually more less digusting?? get it?? haha -__-''
`then yesterday rain...``wooottss!!`` happy happy played in the rain..yooohooo!! im soooo wet
`like totally wait de...whole body!! like i went swimming ``haha
`sadly i didnt fall sick..haiz =[ ..wished i did though so can stay at home n sleep!!! piggy piggy!!
`haha ...the irritating kid seems sooo caring now a dayz haha..do i really look happy wif me??
`dunno leh..got to admit his damn funny yesterday..but at da same time really irritating as well!haha
`he wun stop talking abt skimming ...juz bcoz he stop skimming he bcome sooo lame liaoss..he said his surfing now..?? but like...how do he carry a board twice his size?? huh??huh??? HUH??? haha..

``y getting sooo insecure ??
``wen ur insecure im insecure as well..
``though i've tried my best to assure ..dear plz dun worry sooo much liaoss!!
``like ur very stress abt me n lil' bro?? haha..small kid
``dun stress coz i feel your stress!!
``nvm..i guess i got to try harder to make him feel better n less stress..
``go go go denise!!! u can do it!! `wooottsss!! wahhahaha..im siao..

2005-08-16T18:49:00.000-07:00

`haha..now mt in cosmix using da com..*yohooo!! ..yesterday *omg de..
did my maths in school never go for german class..tot maybe wait till floorball finishes then can meet up for awhile..spend some time..but dunno how ..he juz seem to disappear into thin air..he left me in school..called him like7 times..n nv pick up..aiyoyoy!!

2005-08-14T06:59:00.000-07:00

`we are such a lonely couples =]
`eventhough we haf each other we still are lonely..
`weirrddd huh??

`didnt spend much time 2gether now a dayz
`busy wif stuffs??
`wanna spend ``dun need``
`wanna call ``scared`` coz dat time uUu ``noo mood`` called u only ended up ='[ hurts
`i dun think i even dare to look at uUu in da eyes ``gotta avoid??`` dunno??
`i've become sooo unsecure abt uUu n me?? ``hafnt u notice yet??
``i really dunno wats wrong...im soo sorry..
`uUu seems sooo busy now a dayz..`u seems sooo sick n tired..

`of this crap?? `crap?? isnt dat da word u used?? do u know dat hurts?? alot...
`juz pretend dat im a-ok coz i dun wan things to grow big...
`watevers wrong...lets fix it 2gether alrite?? =]

2005-08-12T06:02:00.000-07:00

something isnt rite....
i can feel it again...feel it again...
this isnt da 1st time...
dat uUu left me waiting...

`haiz?? `wahaha..shall write abt the NATIONAL DAY PARADE!!! >.<''
`omg de!!! it totally rocks to the max!!! everyone was like sooo damn hyper!!!
`specially HAZWAN!!! `wahaha his unstoppable!!
`he kept shouting n cheering SINGAPORE!! wow!! datz wat i call a real motivator!!
`he even motivated da MOTIVATORS itself..haha
`but i know someone was having a rotten day =]
`1st specs broke next bike lost...wats next??
`its been proven dat im ur unlucky star...
`everysince dat unfaithful day all dat come ur way are unlucky stuffs
`ur teeth all mess up liaoss..haf to go for surgery on my b-day itself..wahaha
`nvm lar.. i understand.. =]
`how come all u get is bad luck....are we really jinxed???? wah ..im soo sorry ='[

`u predict things n dey happened...
`i imagine things n dey happened...
`weird huh...??
`wat u predicted is similar to wat i've imagine
`das dat mean dat our time 2gether is coming to an end soon..?
`if i could stop da time...i would
`i wanna stay in ur warm embrace ..rite here rite now...
`at this very momment...`i love ya ...

`if i ever leave u alone..
`its for ur own good...
`plz remember dat..i juz wan to bring u happiness...
`i wan to stop this chain of bad luck ..coz i feel dat...something much worst is coming our way..
`maybe da gd ting dat will happen is for u 2 be free from all this jinx stuffs
`but if u wanna know i dun wanna let go__i will hold on..
`for as long as its worth...as long as u wan me to =]

:::b|ink 182:::

2005-08-06T06:31:00.001-07:00

"I Miss You"

(I miss you, I miss you)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim
of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, I miss you)(I miss you, I miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call yo
uand hear your voice of treaso
nWill you come home and stop this pain tonigh
tStop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
[x3](I miss you, I miss you) [x4]

`omg...tom is a very special day!!! >_<''
`wahahaha
`happy 1 month dear dear!!!
`lots of love from me to uUu!!!

`ok crap

:::b|ink 182:::

2005-08-06T06:31:00.000-07:00

2005-08-05T05:42:00.000-07:00

`i hate disappointing people..
`specially the ones dats dear to me..
`i feel like a piece of shit not good enoff for them..
`
lazy to blog lar..haha ..my bloggy ok liaos...heng ar

2005-07-31T06:33:00.000-07:00

*omg de!!!!! something wrong wif my bloggy liaosssss!! >.< `wahahahaha..dunno wats wrong?? REEZA help!!!!!ASAP!!! wahhhhhhhhhhh....!! i still wan this bloggy de..im tooooooooooooooooooo lazy tooooooo change the skin!!! wahahaha!!! helphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

`hmmm..wats nice to blog abt...NDP!!!!!
`we are like da montivators for marina south..haiz...selected dancers totally suffers the most de lor... ='[
`run up n down the freaking stage ..somemore very sian...nv join the rest..aiyoyoyoyoyo..
`me n hazwan was like `toot!!! wahaha...we keep saying toot toot toot toot toot sort sort one.. =]
`then after dancing on the stage we went to talk the ''short cut'' which is abt 20 min walk lar..another tooting session for me n hazwan..`wahaha...i wonder how long is the long cut??? 1 hr maybe?? who knows..
`arrived to join the rest n dancers were like the last one to arrived..somemore we never get to sit on the table n chairs wen we ate our dinner.. haiz =[ ..nvm bahx..as long as we can eat KFC can liaossss...
`then on the bus back to bishan..omg de!!!! lau gong 2nd~~~wahaha...u ar..i tot only between me n uUu y u show the world..waaaaaaaaaahhhh..sooo sad sooo sad..nvm bahx..lucky u wearing shorts de...lurve the legs darling!!! `muah muah muah..sexy hothothothothothothot wahaha
`ants all over us!!!! i was like sitting on the chair besideds hazwan n suddenly ANTS on my leg i juz bloted n hazwan was like `omg wats wrong wif u..his laffing at me!!!! wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

`anyway i shall stop here..i wanna write on my other bloggy wahahaha.
`lost my kakak..but nvm lar..life goes on mah..i know the day would come wen i haf to let her go bahx..
`didnt asked her the reason y...juz let her do wat she wans bahx..nth i can do..

`since u've been gone i can breathe for the 1st time...im sooooo moving on..thanks to u...i get wat i wan..since u've been gone....though i miss u lotz..im sooo sorry

`guess whos testi got deleted!!! piece of shit #4!!! wahahahahaha..good for u!!
`miss my 3rd lau gong!!!

`omg...my attitude prob juz got bigger!! wahaha..maybe bcoz been hanging out wif them... `im no longer afraid =]..feel like quiting concil...n chairperson..wahahaha..

`i know my post is siao..cannot undestand one..wahaha nvm nvm..goody goody..
`oh ya..slip on the stage twice..well almost anyway if i really did i haf to scream out loud...yohhhoooo!!!!

:::dun wanna try NO more:::

2005-07-26T03:10:00.000-07:00

it's the hardest thing
i'l ever have to do
to look you in the eye
and TELL YOU i don't love you

it's the hardest thingi'l ever have TO LIE
TO SHOW no EMOTION
when you start to cry

i can't let you see
what you mean to me
when my HANDS ARE TIED
and my HEART IS NOT FREE

we're not meant to be

it's the hardest thing
i'll ever have to do
to TURN AROUND AND WALK AWAY
PRETENDING i don't love you
wen i really REALLY do____wo . ai. ni

`ok juz another crap which i found in the net `wahahaha
`i tell u this bloggy haf no privacy liaos..sooo many people come n read..`aiyoyoyo
`nvm lar..i still got another bloggy...for me to know n for u to find out..`muhahaha
`only my 3rd lau gong know abt it rite honey bunny wei sien??? `shes sooo trustworthy n adorable!!! >.<

`uUu know..this guilt trip dat u put me on WUN mess me up i've done NO wrong any tots of me n uUu haf gone away!!!
`i know ur hurt ..angry n disappointed wif me..but theres nth i can do..
`i've asked u for patch the last time remember?? the say after we broke up n u were like pushing me to him..
`now u wan me back..i dun think so..it hurts wen u did dat to me...u juz cant come back wenever u wan coz i wun be waiting forever for u
`im sooo sorry..i know i hurt u alot...but im hurt too...
`im sorry kakak...for HURTING ur dear frend..but ur juz looking at his side of story ='[
`n he never asked me for patch !!! he lied

`wah today history lessons!!! shit lar....mother mole the freaking teacher
`i only haf two eyes wat..u expect me to see everything dats happendning in class ar..aiyoyoyo
`im not some super woman like u lor ..
`somemore today im not feeling so gd...sick liaos still wan to scold me..haiz.sometimes i dun wanna be a chairperson ..sometimes it juz sucks..teachers are expecting sooo much from u...but u know u cant give dat much..thy're like expecting u to be a super woman..make everything rite ='[ y does such teacher exsist??
`sobsobsobsobsobsobsobsobs ..i wan cry juz now liaosss..lucky my classmates defend me..thanks lots guys!!! 2 [e]3 rocks to the max!!!!!!!!! >.<''

`u are officially annouce PIECE OF SHIT #4 today!!!!!
`lots of congrats from me to uUu!!!

:::|a|ass:::

2005-07-25T05:20:00.000-07:00

`oh ya... i action meh?? *nabe ar.. talk to u nicely say i action..watever -roll eyes- ...u wanna know wat spread is..i'll show uUu `evil muhahaha ..
`guess wat gurll.. im only action to ACTION people LIKE u!!

:::FRANKLY:::

2005-07-25T04:55:00.000-07:00

`frankly i hate uUu to the bone!!!! if dats wat u want to know!!! *mother mole* come online juz to scold me isit!? ...i haf nth better to do than to tolorate u rite!!? *nabe* u wanna know y i hate u soooo much...come on ...
`stupid of me to think dat ur such a `nice n sweet gurl` plz lar..uUu aiyoyoyo!! no comment..no words can describe u lar..`talk to u nicely also no use one..think ur soo clever ..know wat people should do isit..? guess wat...WE REALLY HATE U ..`denise y are u sooo lame?? `aiyo y are u sooo stupid?? `who wun hate this kind of gurl `aiyoyoyoyo..`talk to her gently coz u know wat she been through..`watever lar gurl..talk to the hand..

`im sooooo sorry

:::-_-''|:::

2005-07-23T23:58:00.000-07:00

"Want You Back"

Last night I saw you the first time since we broke up
I tell you baby it all came back to me
when I looked into your eyes there was something more
that I never really noticed before
Could it be?
That all along
I was so wrong
When I realized And turned around and you were gone
If I say I want you back
Would you turn around and say you want me too
'Cause I say I want you back
This time I really mean it
It hurts so much I want to tell you I changed for you
But I don't know what to say or do
We grew apart but I still want you in my heart
I believe it's time to make a new start
Could it be that all along
I was so wrong When I realized and turned around and you were gone
If I say I want you back...

*this time i REALLY mean it =D

:::----::::

2005-07-23T23:43:00.000-07:00

"Going Crazy"

Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within No other man would ever make me feel so rightIts nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight

[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your ladyI've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make i
tJust ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you its been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you
I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true, no fronting
Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you I'll just break down (down)

[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your ladyI've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make itJust ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby Ohhh, ohhh....Crazy... lady..... lately.... Ohhh ohhh..... Ohh ohhh ohhhhhhBaby...

*im not going crazy...coz im already CRAZY! *wahahhaha

:::----:::

2005-07-23T23:21:00.000-07:00

"How Could You"

[Verse:]
It's kinda crazy baby,
How I remember things,
(like where you came from and how you had nothin)
I went and made you fly,
Put extras on your ride,
(didn't miss a birthday now u cant even remember mine)

[Hook:]
U made it clear to me (you wasn't down for me),
(Love made me blind, baby)
but now I see,
(you had things up your sleeve, dont even lie to me)
I even heard it from your family,

[Chorus:]
How could you let somebody lay where I layed?
How could you give him everything that we made?
How could you call him all the names that you used to call me?
How could You How Could You just forget bout me?
How Could You teach him all the things I taught You?
How Could You put him up to the Ghetto Karmasutra?
How Could You put me in the back and give him the front seat?
How Could You How Could You just forget bout me?

[Verse:]
You must be out ya mind,
You got alot of nerve
(to think that im gone chill after all the shit I heard),
I damn near carried you,
I could've married you,
Good thing I found out b4 I bought that 7karate for ya,

(I kno ur sick about)
the way I found you out,
(GO head and pack it out)
I hope he's got room in his house,
should have thought of me b4 you hopped in the sheets,
Damn I cant believe that u did this to me

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
Girl I tried to give u everything,
Can't believe the ways u repaid me,
Girl u had it all,
But I guess my all wasn't good enough for you,
Baby I've accepted it,
And I aint gone trip,
Girl im movin on,
Sometimes I cant help but think that another man's gonna get the one I made for me

[Chorus]
How could you let somebody lay where I layed?
How could you give him everything that we made?
How could you call him all the names that you used to call me?
How could you, How could you just forget about me?
How could you teach him all the things I taught you??
How could you put him up to the Ghetto Karmasutra??

*yes [d]enise how could uUu do dat tat to him!!!!???? *mother mole

:::wackooooo:::

2005-07-22T06:56:00.000-07:00

aiyooo today start basketball training sial..very tiring my leg very pain lor..somemore tom still got the NDP thingy.. haiz =[ ..not same grp as wei sien.. [a.k.a] my 3rd lau gong..would be great if same grp as her more fun
`haha..after basketball training went to play basketball outside school..play wif `dem wa lau..they beat him up somemore smoke in fornt of me but quiet gd lar..he blow the air away..then blanja me drinks 2 times`muhaha too bad me not interested in him sial... -___-'' then went home use come...chatchat `someone online..cute sial..read my bloggy also stress alamak!! relax lar =]....i understand sooooo stress till i wan laff liaos..`hahaha!!
cute cute cute!!!! `my com lagging ar..cant write too much...anyway my lau gong haiz! cant write testi for her!!! da frendster all laggy one.. `aiyoyoyoyo srry de 3rd lau gong..but i'll see u in NDP thingy tom..can see her dance muahahaha..`she dance till sooo nice sial...oooooohhh hothothothothothothot...mel jiejie said shes gonna teach me the L.A walk..cant wait alrite!!? haha..

`oh ya..played wif quim during Pe..
`played floorball sial..
`5 person liaos he still can get the ball n scored..
`wow..im amazed sial..haha
`he played so well can see he national player..gd sial..`
`he can control the ball wifout breaking a sweat..muhaha
`he played so gd till i wan to whack him liaoss..haha give chance lar

:::READ between the lines:::

2005-07-21T06:40:00.000-07:00

`ii [w]anna[c]ome[1st] how i wish its juz a living thing rather than being an 'it' its easier to fight against it n admit defeat than like this..
`dunno wen 'its' gonna attack n strike..must built the wall much more stronger n higher..
`so nobody can bring it down or climb it up..
`if not im gonna be totally broken

`juz wan to be the [1]st one rather than being in the [2]nd place alwayz
`wen are will i be put to [1]st?
`ok i know im sort
`since u totally nv do anything wrong
`except love it soo much..
`loving it is not wrong really
`i support all the way...

`y is life so unfair to u..
`i wan to make things rite for u do u know dat?
`but how can i if ur not here? u ARE nv here..theres nth i can go..

2005-07-21T05:12:00.000-07:00

`if u wanna know...i dun wanna let go..

`ahhhhh...the msg u send me was soooo clear..
`i get it.i get everything...
`u can be soo carefree now bcoz he isnt the keeper rite...so i can juz sold him ..
`but wat if i scolded him back then wen he was a keeper..
`will u be sooo carefree???
`i bet no..u would be begging me not to scold him..
`gosh..its sooo freaking clear..it hurts my eyes..
`the truth alwayz hurt alot rite..but wat to do..must accept..
`stop using me..

2005-07-16T18:28:00.000-07:00

*aaaahhhaaa!!! the msg is clear noW.....so like my job or use to u is to talk to quim n ask him to play this wednesday game rite?? `haha..ok i'll do my job well..i'll bet everything in dat game to make him play his best..winning is everything isnt it?? of course..who wants to lose?? `stupid gurl`

2005-07-15T09:22:00.000-07:00

"Me, Myself & I"

All the ladies if you feel me, help me sing it out...
I can't believe i believed
Everything we had would last
So young and naive for me to think
She was from your past
Silly of me to dream of One day having your kids
Love is so blind It feels right when it's wrong

I can't believe i fell for your schemes
I'm smarter than that
So young and naive to believe that with me
You're a changed man
Foolish of me to compete
When you cheat with loose women
It took me some time but now i moved on

Cuz i realized i got Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend

So controlling , you said that you love me
But you don't
Your family told me one day
I would see it on my own
Next thing i know i'm dealing
With your three kids in my home
Love is so blindIt feels right when it's wrong

Now that it's over
Stop calling me
Come pick up your clothes
Ain't no need to front like you're still with me
All your homies know
Even your very best friend Tried to warn me on the low
It took me some time
But now i am strong

Because i realized i got Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend

Me myself and iI know that i will never disappoint myself
I must have cried a thousand times
All the ladies if you feel me
Help me sing it now

I can't regret all the times spent with you
Ya, you hurt me
But i learned a lot along the way
After all the rainYou'll see the sun come out again
I know that i will never disappoint myself
[Repeat to end]

`haha back to lyrics again..lazy to blog sial..only that someone asked me to blog..he himself nv update his bloggy..`aiyoyoyo..fair or not? `muhaha..anyway this song ar..nice rite?the lyrics is quite long but its nice n meaningful..`yeap..nth last 4ever..sooner or later everything will end..so enjoy it while u can `muahaha..
in the end all u got to blame is yourself..u haf to suffer the pain alone! `evil..but truetruetrue.. believe the expert here..ben there done dat..haha.. `aiyoyoy.. *Q y is bloggy now a dayz use for gossiping abt someone else?i dunno lar sial..she gossip sooo much abt my nabiba..`mother mole.. `muhahaha..miss my lua gong sooo much.. `muah =]

:::How could they!!?:::

2005-07-13T08:01:00.000-07:00

*omg!!!! urgh!! mother mole sial!!! wat do they mean they changed their mind!!??? this is an once in a lifetime chance!!! how can they juz make such a big decision juz like dat wifout bothering abt our feelings!!? its juz one stupid mole dance in national day IN SCHOOL!! n we cant go for the NDP thingy!!?? argh!!!!!!!! wat is this!!! like come on!! ....haiz!!! plzplzplzplzplzplzplzplzplz let us go!!!! aiyoyoyoyoyoyo!!! sooo frustrating sial!!! xD

anyway now starting to haf itch all over..coz ate CRABBY n CHOCO!! *muhahaha* ..
cant believe tiger shark won!!! haiz! i expected thunderbolt to win .. =[
anyway well done peeps!
next game is on WEDNESDAY ..*omg
i wonder if we can won..now its the gurls turn..
somemore hockey also got game dat day.. `aiyoyoyo stress!! >.< `haha
got my skim board finally!! thx to kakak NORLIA!! muah! haha..
abit out of shape n sooo long sial..almost like surfboard like dat..nvm..still hafnt buy present for haikal sial..
-__-'' kk..shall stop here..cant believe someone is quiting BBALL for dat special someone of HIS..`wow..wish somebody would do dat for me too `muhaha jealous sial..dat someone sooo special dat his ready to give up his sport for her `awww..isnt he sooo sweet!?

2005-07-11T03:23:00.000-07:00

omg..somebody is really sick today!! ahhh!! n tom is the game liaoss!! sooo worry sial!!! dunno wat to do!!!!
wat happens if ur past comes back? dunno sia..aiyoyoy...ok shall stop here..no time liaos later late for church..write more next time..actually lazy to write de..only dat somebody asked me to bloggy n not be lazy muhaha

2005-07-10T05:56:00.000-07:00

"This Is How A Heart Breaks"

Don't you wanna go for a ride
Just keep your hands inside
And make the most out of life
Now don't you take it for granted
Life is like a mean machine
It made a mess outta me
It left me caught between
Like an angry dream I was stranded

And I'm steady but I'm starting to shake
And I don't know how much more I can take

This is it now
Everybody get down
This is all I can take
This is how a heart breaks
You take a hit now you feel it break down
Make you stay wide awake
This is how a heart breaks

Don't you wanna go for a ride
Down to the other side
Feels so good you could cry
Now won't you do what I told you
I remember when you used to be shy
Yeah, once we were so fine
You and I why you gotta make it so hard on me

And I'm sorry but it's not a mistake
And I'm running but you're getting away
You're not the best thing that I knew
Never was never cared too much
For all this hanging around
It's just the same thing all the time
Never get what I want
Never get too close to the end of the line
You're just the same thing that I knew back before the time
When I was only for you

*nth behind the song* but i love this song!! ah!! haha..7july the day canberra sec bball boys lost..but lost also lost wif pride n dignity! im soooo proud of them!! i cant wait to join the bball gurls team *muhaha*
7july passed by his house.. *omg* it was sooooo empty!! nobody live there anymore..i cant believe it..his gone 4ever *wah* i cant believe my decision cause sooo much trouble to everyone ='[ *aiyoyoyoyoyoyoyo*
7july something special happened found out urself *muhaha*
now very stress abt hockey..aiyaaa...its not even my CCA n im sooo stress abt it!! *haha* dunno y..juz hope they keep winning all the way..win all the way then nth will change..but then dats impossible ..u gotta win some n lose some..wonder if they'll accept the result..*ahhh* im going crazy! correction IAM crazy juz getting even more crazier *haha* ..ok dun think abt it gurl..later very stress cannot take it..i wonder how i can take it if its my game..aiyoyoyo
today had lots of fun...eventhough mood swing abit in the afternoon..but morning very funny ..i cant believe it today is like the craziest day of the inamac bros..esp chino! haha! his sooo crazy n hyper today dunno wat he ate *haha* my stomach still hurts from laughing too much!! *haha*
looking gd in quicksilver shirt sial..*wah* blew my mind away.. haha!! -i dun wanna talk abt it coz it hurts..*
i wished hockey is a gurl..its easier to deal if it is..but nooo its a non-living thing..so how do i compete wif it? haha *sortsortsort*

:::everythings changing:::

2005-07-03T02:46:00.000-07:00

The Bottom Line
Go over all the details, one more time. You don't want to miss something important.

In Detail
Change is good for the soul. In fact, it's not just good, it's necessary. You know that, because you're practical enough to realize that nothing stays the same forever. But you're also intuitive enough to know that it's coming now, so you might as well expect it and welcome it with open arms. If it happens to pertain to a work situation, which is most likely the case, you may even enjoy it. Try to stifle that grin when it happens.

:::white flag:::

2005-07-03T01:48:00.000-07:00

i can say im truely happy till this day____
u made me think i gotta live my life everyday__
theres nv been a doubt in my mind___
dat i regret ever hafing u by my side___
if da day comes dat i haf to let u go__
i think theres something i should probably let u know__
i will miss u coz im happy dat i had u at all__
baby i loved uUu__
i loveD uUu___yes i do
i'll be wif uUu as long as u wan me to___

*all mixed up* some lines from da song never be replace... lame lame lame -__-'' *haha*
anyway paws down liao...da doggy haf raised da white flag `she has given up all her hopes..her dreamz (^^)
but she knows dat..wen something beautiful died ..something even more beautiful will grow from it..hopefully
she haf learnt her lesson n wont repeat her mistakes ever again .. (*o*) ... she has decided to stop running away n face da reality wif her frens by her side...she will face him tom n will show him dat she haf moved on...
but she's also gonna show him dat...they're still frends regardless of wat had happened..she will give her support n will encourage him in everyting dat he do or wants to do..coz dats wat frends are for? =]] but 1 thing
is very clear in her mind..she has woken up from da nitemare n is walking away from it..nv looking back..nv will go back...da past is best left behind..but y do we need to study history!? *haha* she's gonna haf fun tom wif them..n if he didnt haf fun..its not her concern any longer..she haf accepted da fact..n dun wanna try no more...for real..but she dun dare to say gdbye theres no point saying gdbye coz they're still gonna be frens for life rite? frendship do last da longest..................................................................................................................
it can last 4ever..n dats all she ever wants..to be his frend ...to give him advice n cheer him up wen his down..
she juz thought dat..she cant continue sacrificing anymore .....she haf given up sooo much..she cant affort anymore mistakes.. but one thing bothers her...wat did he give n sacrifice for her??

:::why:::

2005-07-02T06:42:00.000-07:00

___Y is it tat ppl who r hurt in lurve,Chose to lurve?
___Y is it tat ppl who have shed countless tears for the person they lurve,Chose to lurve?
___Y is it tat ppl who sacrifies in lurve,Chose to lurve?
___Y is it tat when ppl who r in lurve,Heart breaks,Chose to lurve?
___Y is it tat when ppl who r in lurve,Knows tat the one they lurve,Dun lurve them,Still chose to lurve?`__________________Euu Make Mii Know The Answers To This Questions
`__________________________Wo Ai Ni

*haha* -__-""

3rd

2005-06-30T06:59:00.000-07:00

"Don't Wanna Try"

(oooo)...don't wanna try don't wanna try (try try) (oooo)..don't wanna try no more (ooo)..don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try

[Verse 1]
i can't believe u had the nerve to say the things u said they hurt so bad that they ended our relationship i can't believe it ..
4 years gone down the drain oh how i wish things would of happened so differently i try'd to save it so many times but you still couldn't see u kept insistin' and resistin' that u would not fall again and now ur tryin' to tell me that ur sorry and ur tryin' to come back home ur tellin' me u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor but baby i

[Chorus]
don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
don't wanna try don't wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things that hurt so bad to where we both begin to cry
don't wanna try don't wanna try i 'bout just had enough its been a rough road baby just let it go
don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love

[Verse 2]
u and i had many conversations on the telephone
talks about one day we having a place of our own wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table but all of that just seems so far away from me had to wake up face reality it all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through and now ur tryin' to tell me that ur sorry and ur tryin' to come back home u tellin' me that u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor but baby i

[Chorus]
don't wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door don't wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things that hurt so bad to where we both begin to cry
dont wanna try don't wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road baby just let it go
don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more tell me whats the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love [..fading into beat] (don't wanna try don't wanna try) (don't wanna try no more) (don't wanna try don't wanna try..oo) (don't wanna try don't wanna try) (don't wanna try no more) (don't wanna try dont wanna try don't wanna try no more ooo)

`my story?? haha..all by frankieeeeeee J!!!! urgh!! nice songs!!

`his story?

2005-06-30T06:54:00.000-07:00

"How To Deal"

Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it
But if I do I'll probably regret it
How do I cope

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

It's killing me to know
That your heart's with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

`is this it??

`1st

2005-06-30T06:40:00.000-07:00

"Obsession (No Es Amor)"

(Check check ...this happened for real ...baby bash..yo.. frankie j.... obession)

Well it's early in the morning
And my heart is feeling lonely
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted in the head
And I dont know how to take it
But it's driving me so crazy
I dont know if it's right I'm tossin turning in my bed

It's 5 oclock in the morning
And I still can't sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me weep...
I'm feeling hopeless in my home
I dont know what to do I think I'm in loveBaby...

[Chorus]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Now I know you're not my lady but I'm just tryin to make this right
I dont know what to do I'm going out of my mind
So baby if u let me could I getchu to say maybe we could ride together
We could do this all nite
now I dont care if u got a man
Baby I wish you'd understand Cuz I know he can't love u right, quite like I can

It's 5 oclock in the morning
And I still can't sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes meweep...
I'm feeling hopeless at home
I dont kno what to do I think I'm in love

[Chorus]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
It's an obsession

[Baby Bash]
Hold up let me dream
Shorty got me feelin less supreme
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, I love to spend it
And thats whats up and I dont care what people scream
You're my blessin when I'm stressin
My superfly beauty queen I'm gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my money know how I do, we go rendez-vous, mi corazon belongs to you

[Chorus]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)
what am I do wrong [echo]Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)What am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong?) what am I do so wrong? [echo]Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?Amor

`1st came da obsession

:::...:::

2005-06-25T07:39:00.000-07:00

`not dat i 've 4gotten all abt uUu ...juz dat i dun wanna talk abt it... `coz i know itz all my fault...`i also know i deserve all this.. `soooo ya...` dun wan to think abt it..`i'll only feel sorry for myself ...coz im in love wif uUu...

`im sorry for wat i did...but i cant changed da past..would u accept my sorry..or do u wan choco? *haha*
`anyway dun ever let chances passed uUu by like i did... =] `i juz cant go on like this anymore.. uUu 100% derserve sooooo much more than me...
`ur frends are worried abt uUu..u changed soooo much? i tot u'll stay if i wan uUu to? `anyway dun be so IN to it ...not gd.. it should be play for fun.... dun stress also =] relax is wat uUu need? *haha..u told me b4*

`gonna be busy busy wen school re-open..wun be able to update blog soooo much...
`only once a week i guess..
`now im feeling feverish... =] gd...

:::Ai ni:::

2005-06-24T07:31:00.000-07:00

in an ordinary place
an unexpected moment
our eyes met

i know that the person
i am finding all this while
is YOU

it's fate which brought us together
it's fate which made us a pair
it's fate which we believed

3hundred years 5 days
8thousand 7hundred 6 hours
5hundred 25thousand 6hundred minutes
315hundred 36thousand seconds
every day ; every hourevery minute ; every second
i am loving you

:::Alone:::

2005-06-24T07:02:00.000-07:00

This isnâ€™t the end, this is the start,
Of you ripping my body and soul apart,
Everything inside me, including my heart,
You left in a million tiny parts.

You filled my heart full of fear,
All I want is you to be here,
You always know how to bring me to tears,
You are like on giant painful spear.

You leave me feeling full of doubt,
I donâ€™t think I can live without,
You make me want to scream and shout,
And let all these feelings and emotions out.

When you do this, it seems like you donâ€™t care,
You just go away, and leave me there,
Bloodstains on whatever I wear,
Leave me with a cold, hard stare.

All I want is you to hold me,
Love me and just let me be,
I just want you to see,What it is like, living, being me.

You fill me with hurt and pain,
And you keep doing it, over and over again,
Seems like you always bring on the rain,Over and over, always the same.

You make it worse with every hit,
You make me want to crawl away and sit,
You make sure you kill every little bit,
You leave, with one last hard slit.

Thereâ€™s nothing I can do or say,
Nothing I can do to make it go away,
All I can do is sit and pray,
You will leave me alone; this will be the final day.

`found this on da net.. nicenicenice?? not asking oneone to leave me alone...juz find this very meaningful.. anyway i dun wan to be alone also.. life will juz be lonely n cold ='[ ..`anyway maybe its best dun haf stead now..since wen school re-open im gonna be as busy as beez...gonna take up another CCA -basketball- *yea* ..
so i haf MDH...BASKETBALL...and GERMAN CLASSES after school...for now i only haf MDH N GERMAN CLASSES ...my only free dayz during week days were ...monday n thrusday....tues german class...wed cca n chruch...fri german class n cca.. *haiz...* nvm..its gd to haf basketball..lose weight n STRESS!! *haha*

:::Horoscope:::

2005-06-24T06:02:00.000-07:00

'his'

The Bottom Line
You're just the embodiment of ambition right now. Plan big and you can win big.

In Detail
No matter how far away the target seems, not to worry -- your aim is true. You've been working toward this goal for a long time, and it's important not to slacken your efforts right now before the big finish. So take a deep breath, pull back and fire with everything in your power. It's okay to be worried about the outcome, but don't let that worry affect your performance. In any case, have a little faith, and you'll hit the bull's-eye.

'mine'

The Bottom Line
Time for a change of plans? You may just need a new way of approaching things.

In Detail
Think of this complicated conundrum as a DVD, and you have director's cut. So are there certain scenes you'd like to delete? Perhaps a commentary that could give some insight into the situation that the viewers might otherwise not have? And, most importantly, are there any scenes you'd like to add that could completely change the context of the whole story? Remember -- you have creative control.

`totally opposite` *haha*...gotta take our time on this...though both of us dun really care much now... -__-'

:::translation:::

2005-06-21T22:38:00.000-07:00

May gusto ka bang sabihin?
At hindi mapakali, ni hindi makatingin
Sana'y wag mo na 'tong palipasin
At subukang lutasin, sa mga sinabi mo na........

[refrain:]
Ibang nararapat sa akin, na tunay kong mamahalin

[chorus:]
Oh oh oh oh wag na wag mong sasabihin
Na hindi mo nadama itong........
pag-ibig kong handangIbigay kht pa kalayaan mo

Hindi ko man inaakala, na ako'y isang bituin na walang sasambahin
Hindi ko man ito ipakita, abot langit ang daing, sa mga sinabi mo na

[refrain:]
Ibang nararapat sa akin, na tunay kong mamahalin

[chorus:]
Oh oh oh oh wag na wag mong sasabihin
Sa hindi mo nadama itong.........
pag-ibig kong hanang
Ibigay kht pa kalayaan mo

[bridge:]
At sa gabi, sinong duduyan sayo?
At sa umaga, ang hangin na hahaplos sayo

[chorus:]
Oh oh oh oh wag na wag mong sasabihin
Na hindi mo nadama itong........
pag-ibig kong handangIbigay kht pa kalayaan mo

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Do you feel like saying something...
but you just cant get it rite..
Cant look me in the eye
I hope you wont let this chance passes you by...
but you did when you said
I deserve someone else..

[refrain:]
The only one..
I'll truely loooooovvveeee

[chorus:]
oh oh oh oh [[never ever]] never ever say you never..
felt my loved for you..
the love that i've given up..
Just to set you freeeee....

I never thought of myself..
As highly as you think
I'm not that kind of girl..
Eventhough I never really showed it..
I dont accept when you said
I deserve someone else..

[refrain:]
The only one...
I'll truely loooovvveeeee...

[chorus:]
oh oh oh oh [[never ever]] never ever say you never..
felt my loved for you..
the love that i've given up...
Just to set you freeeeee...

[bridge:]
Plz Tell me...
At nite..who will rock you to sleep?
And in the morn..
Who will protect you from da strong wind?

[chorus:]
oh oh oh oh [[never ever]] never ever say you never..
felt my loved for you..
the same love that i've given up...
Just to set you free..... [[give you ..your freedom..]]
Dats how much i loveD you..
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nth better to do in life but crap around..`haha

:::One last:::

2005-06-19T06:55:00.000-07:00

*aiyooooo* ...today do wat ar...oh..went to church in da morning...go through everything ..dun even know wat im doing must of da time.. *mind flying* ..then went home...eat lunch.. watch TV ..crap around da house *haha* ..oh ya..i watched fushgi yuugi..its an anime.. *omg* i cried i tell u! da show was like sooooooooo damn sad...da guy was kinda like involved in a love triangle..but da gurl didnt chose him..eventhough he was alwayz there for da gurl..support her n all da crap..in da end he died protecting da gurl *omg* i wan a guy juz like him!! sooo gentle! *haha*..da guy da gurl choses also not bad de..make her happy n laff everytime ..also protect n understand her everytime *haha* ...anyway after watching it..called norlia...wah i called her we didnt even talk..i cried sial..cried until like crap..now my eyes very painful...*aiyo* ...juz cant stop crying.. guess i really did love him.....

I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go

So let's have
Chorus:
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go

Everytime I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love n
never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus

Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear
So let's have

Chorus

We both know
It's better if we just let it go

`u sang to me once..this song..remember? u said ''honestly i cant imagine life wifout u'' ...y did u let go..??
`i know i was wrong..n i know things could haf work out between us..if u only try to 4give n 4get...but u didnt..
`maybe bcoz ur doing this for my sake..*theres more to this than meets da eye* u know we cant be 2gether now..since ur staying there..wats happening to u!? ...i need u by my side..i tot dat wen i broke up wif u i'll be happy..not even 24 hr pass n im feeling sooooooooooo unhappy liaosss...i really wan u back..but i know we cant be 2gether rite now..ur work n parents come 1st..i understand..but must also study hard alrite?? i wasnt gd enoff for u anyway...ur going sooo fast in life.. i'll try to catch up wif u but i cant..guess we really dun suit each other..im gonna work hard..get into bussiness..maybe i might meet u someday!! =]] *haha* ..keep dreaming denise..i really nv met any1 like u..u were soooo patient n everything..ur love is sooo gentle...*haiz*
i wan to cry again! ....................................................................................................................................
dear..i...im soooo sorry...but im really unhappy wifout u..i need u..miss u...haiz..plz com back... i'll write more next time..now eyes too painful liao..

:::all over:::

2005-06-18T02:12:00.000-07:00

da war has ended... its all over..n both of them is da winner *yeahey* ...geez... life goes on.. i guess i deserve this..i keep chosing between them...but i didnt notice i ruin both..*haha* `take her..take care of her` .. `i dunno... both was like `i dun suit her...dun worry..its ok...*haha* ...`im not some dog `i can make up my own mind `dun haf to pass me around reach other's hand to avoid da burden of being wif me `im better off alone anyway... *haha* ..gonna 4get n move on ....i guess datz da reason y his mum has asked me to go wif Safuan from da very beginning...she knows..she knows dat her son will never be back here again...nv ever... *hah..*
...well....nice know both of u...

i'll translate it next time..now no mood

2005-06-17T07:40:00.000-07:00

May gusto ka bang sabihin
bat di mapakali Ni hindi makatingin
sana'y wag mo na tong palipasin
at subukang lutasin
sa mga isinabi mo na
iba ang nararapat sa akin
na tunay kong mamahalin

*chorus*
o wag na wag mong sasabihin
na hindi mo nadama itong pag ibig kong
handang ibigay kahit pagkalayaan mo

Ano man ang naakala
na akoy isng bituin
na walang sasambahin
diko man ito ipakita
Abot langit ang daig
sa mga isinabi mo
na iba ang nararapat sa akin
na tunay kong mamahalin

*chorus*
O huwag na huwag mong sasabihin
na hindi mo nadama itong pag-ibg kong
handang inigay kahit pagkalaan mo

At sa gabi sinong duduyan sa'yo
at sa umaga ang hangin na hahaplos sa'yo

*chorus*
O huwag na huwag mong sasabihin
na hindi mo nadama
itong pag ibig kong handang
ibigay kahit pagkala yaan mo

..nth..better to do in life

:::broken off:::

2005-06-17T06:47:00.000-07:00

juz broke up wif him...dun really haf mood to blog......dun really know if we did..but we were angry n wen da words lets broke up come up...we both said FINE...did we juz broke up...haiz..

:::busy as bees:::

2005-06-14T06:34:00.000-07:00

*yeahey* ...today gathered up all my courage juz to say ellow to Safuan.. *haha* cant believe he talked to me.. omg.. i tot he's angry at me but i guess not..his juz very Very busy now a days..hmm..maybe bcoz of Hockey..who knows? maybe some gurl? *haha* i dun mind if he haf someone else..actually happy happy for me de..coz now he can be happy n not lonely anymore wor..but then can say i will be sad lar..*haha* but who cares!? life goes on gurl!! close one chapter n open another one! *rubbish* ...honestly i will be VERY VERY SAD!! coz this guy is GREAT! not 100% perfection ..but somewhere there *wahaha* ..n if he gives up now..his gonna waste all his effort... wif da D *he cut his finger de* ..n da drawing ...smses...msn..phone calls..da chocos! *yummy* ..da jokes.. *wow* this is one loveable guy!! ...dun really know if i've fallen for him..haf i??..
if i haf then i haf to leave someone lor..dat guy also not bad...but then now a days nv bother abt me liao..no msg in frendster..*alamak* not my prob liao lor..anyway..back to Safuan..cant call him hammy..i think i lost dat rite..dat day..though he really didnt say sorry..*bleah* ..we were juz beginning to chat then he offline liao..so i guess da matter is not 100% solve..i wonder wat his been up to now a dayz..*hmmm* miss him alot sial...i really do..if i can juz say...'stay wif me..coz ur almost there' ..if only i can..haha

:::truth is:::

2005-06-11T04:42:00.000-07:00

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me ou
tFor hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outsideAnymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

*geez...this suckz... da hamster can make da doggy cry *haha*though we are juz frends...he means alot to me..
=] ..all those memories we had wun fade away ..it'll be kept close to my heart..told u so...after 3 weeks this hammy will leave this doggy liao lor..gonna miss u alot *haha* ..n if someday u wan to come back..sorry to say..u cant..[[once its over its over]] no use crying over a spill milk..*haha* dunno y im so strick also..*bleah*
anyway maybe i did something very wrong dat make u act dat way..watever it is im really really really sorry!!
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry! *haha siao liao denise!* oh ya..abt da revenge thingy i told her abt..it was all crap k?how can i take revenge wen i dun even wan to hurt u? *wahaha*
really had lotz of fun wif u worx..enjoyed da walk..sitting besides u in da bus...playing badminton n bowling wif u..*whoa!* ..u really blew me away! *wahaha* ...maybe somewhere along da way..i've like u too..anyway ya...i was willing to give n sac**** ....*haha* u dunno dat now do u? *too bad huh*//too late now// cant believe u ''wat the fuck'' juz bcoz i find da name piggy cuter..n wen i tried...u ''ya watever'' -roll eyes- *haha* ..nvm hammy..i remember things..anyway we're tired of each other rite? we were going too serious too soon bahx..now i only concetrate on my darling..*yea* ..im sure i'll be happier wif him..im sure................
wen u someday read this bloggy..dun regret...maybe wat happened is da best for da both of us..*haha* u'll find ''her'' soon im sure!! *winks* ...n i juz wanna let u know...i really did likeD u alot..more than gdfrends actually..*haha*..call my bhb but..haiz..cant control my feeling towards him..*sorry frends...im soo sorry* im sure i'll be ok ASAP! *yea* i'll find happiness wif Danny...im sure i will....

:::i juz know:::

2005-06-10T06:51:00.000-07:00

hmmmm....me n him ok bahx...he called home liao...he juz sms me recently...but only 3 times worx..so no biggy..*haha* i asked him to wait..asked him not to go yet..but wat to do..such a busy guy.. *haiz* ='[ ..he promised me he'll make time for me..promise promise promise...[[are promises meant to be broken?]] .. anyway i cant keep looking on da bad side...i got to look at da gd side also mahx...he finally called home..we i wanted to break up wif him liao..so i guess i matter alot to him *haha* ..he bother to sms..eventhough 3 times
only..he cut hair no matter wat stlye also must spikey coz i love spike mah *haha* ..sweet rite he? ..then i asked him for his pic then he send to norlia..but then i cannot keep his pic..coz norlia's hp wat..somemore she deleted liao lor... *haiz* - ___-'' ...anyway he said he'll be back soon...more like in 3 weeks time...1 more week left leh...but then he keep avoiding my qz!! *urgh*i juz know he wun be back next week..he wun be back during da holidayz..he juz dun wan to tell me...*haiz*..can he at least come clean !! ..now very lazy to write bloggy liao lor...chatting wif my wei sein dear...n norlia kaka on da phone n msn..*haha* ...[[oh ya]] da hammy juz now said he'll eat..then i wait wait wait..cannot tahan liao sms him..then he said he sleeping!!! *wat sial* ..aiyooo!! make me wait for nth bahx...he wan to sleep also cannot juz sleep like dat...must tell me at least lor..so i dun haf to wait for nth..piss off sial..but cannot blame him actually..coz he very tired got kayaking n hockey somemore...so must be understanding worx..but still he cannot juz like dat lor.. *haiz*

:::gone too far:::

2005-06-04T07:28:00.000-07:00

*aiyo* ...today woke up late..maybe bcoz last nite slept at 12.30 ..anyway went for this work shop...da cream puffs sooooooo yummy sial...*who can bake dat cream puffs ..i sure marry one wifout any qz~~~!!* wahaha...
anyway today supose to walk wif him mah...but then i went down he wasnt there...wait for him till 11.45 then i go off...dun wan to be late..later kakak get more angry lor..go top up da card...then go for da workshop..blah blah blah...after workshop went to woodlands wif my jiejie....n my 2nd lao gong...see cute baby stuffs at kiddy place....*omg* sort...cant wait to haf my own baby worx!!! soooo cute sial!! da dresses n da shoes!!!! *haha* after dat...went to yishun to trim eye brows...but my jiejie 4got da shop closes at 6 ..so ya..waste of time de...
then went home...go online..then face a very angry hammy..! he said he waited for me...but i dunno worx...i know im supose to call him back..but then he sleeping...dun wan to disturb his beauty sleep coz he slept late da nite before mah..he must be very tired...*haiz* then he said he waited for me..but i didnt see him lor....sorry lar...i went down late coz we're supose to meet at 11.30 onwards not 11.15 to 11.30wat.. then then...i trying to explain myself then keep yayayaya..then very irritated liao lor..i wanted to 4give but u wat da fuck wat da fuck somemore..*haiz* ....dunno wat to do wif this hammy liao...wahaha..anyway dunno if this hammy giving up liao..maybe datz for da best since he very unhappy de...juz wan him to be happy datz all...nth else to write bah..plainly lazy *haha* ...sorry k hammy

:::past:::

2005-05-31T07:17:00.000-07:00

1 year ago...haiz..its funny how things changed..huh..? i dump n got dump ..*haha* datz y i dun like dumping people anymore...i learnt a lesson in my life..n i learnt it da hard way.. u tot me.. *wahaha* ..anyway i haf a great time wen i was wif u..maybe datz y i cant 4get n juz move on...i know i will...someday...but not yet..haiz..
wat is wrong wif me...y did i remember uUu?? ..alamak..u seems really really happy wif jiejie..congratz..u finally found da gurl of ur dreamz... =] ...there were 2 happy moments dat i cant 4get..n 2 sad moments dats marked in my heart..1st happy moment is wen we confessed our love n went to sentosa beach 2gether..u were all sugary sweet..i tot theres ants following u *haha* 2nd was wen we went to jess house n watch da movie..u kissed me there n then remember? ....u fell asleep after dat on da couch wrap around each others arm..i remember da sound of ur heart beating..*haha* soooo warm n cuddly!! >.< ....end here 1st.

:::sianzzzzzz:::

2005-05-29T18:54:00.000-07:00

alamak!! .....whole day use da com can be sian also worxxxx!!! wahaha *sobsob* wahaha!! ..anyway kaka really angry at me sial...haiz....sorry k!!! it was juz 1 stupid walk!! im sorry i walk away wen i saw u it was my mistake!! i really shouldnt haf! can u plz 4give me!!?? ..i dun wan to lose to kaka...haiz..actually adore this ka lotz n lotz de..but then like she everytime busy wif other people lor..then never bother wif her meimei......haiz
call her like she dun wan to talk to me..then i very wat ='[ ...ka im really really really sorry!! ..HONEST!! ...sorry...plz dun go..dun wanna lose u...juz wanna let u know how precious u ARE to me...haiz..muah n huggiessss....